Acquaintance
I'm searching for words describing different grades of acquaintance... So many people are abusing the word "friend" nowadays... It's also hard for me to say who's who, few past years taught me not to call "friend" everyone I have good chatter with. Actually, I don't have many friends, many people don't like me, others have changed either because of personal reasons (they found a significant other and forgot about the world around) or because of quarrel I had with them, most often about some silly stuff or misunderstandings. I helped one fellow fur recently, I gave him a reliable chance for a job which he got, and I'm not really sure if he even likes it. He may have said thank you, but in a way I did not notice... All that I need is a simple thank you, nothing more...
His very case makes me pensive and is especially suitable here, because we've once been good friends, we spent a lot of time together, had many joy moments. At some point the shit happened, both of us were guilty, but it was him who abandoned our friendship. It took me over half a year to get over this loss, it's still not possible to forget about it completely. Now I'm seeing him every day since he's working in the same company, sitting next to me... This brings back memories :/
Maybe I'm a bad tiger, maybe I'm getting old, for whatever reason it turns out I can no longer draw attention and build friendship with anybody I'm not firends with. Wish this has changed, I always wanted to have friends around me, I need them and I wish they needed me. Few care, hardly anybody ask "how do you feel, are you happy?". I'm not.
His very case makes me pensive and is especially suitable here, because we've once been good friends, we spent a lot of time together, had many joy moments. At some point the shit happened, both of us were guilty, but it was him who abandoned our friendship. It took me over half a year to get over this loss, it's still not possible to forget about it completely. Now I'm seeing him every day since he's working in the same company, sitting next to me... This brings back memories :/
Maybe I'm a bad tiger, maybe I'm getting old, for whatever reason it turns out I can no longer draw attention and build friendship with anybody I'm not firends with. Wish this has changed, I always wanted to have friends around me, I need them and I wish they needed me. Few care, hardly anybody ask "how do you feel, are you happy?". I'm not.