It's done
The album is done. It's been done for a while now... I just wanted to make sure. I didn't even tell Amanda that I was finished with it. She's heard a few cuts from it but those tracks probably won't even make it on to the final version. I've been the only one in the studio, for the past few weeks since we got to Miami, just adjusting and fixing and then going back doing it again... nothing seems right. Just unsure.
With everything that's been said by the media about me I feel like this next album will be scrutinized so much more. I won't have the added pressure of an English release but a Spanish release can be just as stressful. The past few weeks have been increasingly difficult on my marriage and I hate that things just seems to be routine between Amanda and I. Things were never like that. Maybe I'm just over analyzing things but that's how I am, Amanda does what she can to stop those thoughts but...
The fact that she felt that going to LA would be a good indication of something that should worry me. We communicate, more than any other relationship I've been in, but this time talking couldn't solve anything. It was like we were just talking in circles, saying the same thing over and over again. It wasn't even an argument... it may have started out as one but it turned into the kind of talking that comes out as hushed words and some whispered confessions... whispered only because it hurts to hear them spoken aloud.
But it wasn't an argument.
It was strange. Neither of us are unhappy. But something's off.
She and Jenna came back Saturday afternoon, I'd missed them. When all I see and hear is work and then to go to dinner meetings with my lawyers after that, makes my days seem so long. I usually have Amanda to talk to about this but because of what's going on in court with that women she gets upset. I'd rather not bring it up. My mom will hear nothing of it and my sister just rants about it whenever the subject is brought up so it's not worth talking about the situation with anyone other than the lawyers.
I guess all that matters is that she came back more exuberant than when she had left. She's happy and that's what matters.
With everything that's been said by the media about me I feel like this next album will be scrutinized so much more. I won't have the added pressure of an English release but a Spanish release can be just as stressful. The past few weeks have been increasingly difficult on my marriage and I hate that things just seems to be routine between Amanda and I. Things were never like that. Maybe I'm just over analyzing things but that's how I am, Amanda does what she can to stop those thoughts but...
The fact that she felt that going to LA would be a good indication of something that should worry me. We communicate, more than any other relationship I've been in, but this time talking couldn't solve anything. It was like we were just talking in circles, saying the same thing over and over again. It wasn't even an argument... it may have started out as one but it turned into the kind of talking that comes out as hushed words and some whispered confessions... whispered only because it hurts to hear them spoken aloud.
But it wasn't an argument.
It was strange. Neither of us are unhappy. But something's off.
She and Jenna came back Saturday afternoon, I'd missed them. When all I see and hear is work and then to go to dinner meetings with my lawyers after that, makes my days seem so long. I usually have Amanda to talk to about this but because of what's going on in court with that women she gets upset. I'd rather not bring it up. My mom will hear nothing of it and my sister just rants about it whenever the subject is brought up so it's not worth talking about the situation with anyone other than the lawyers.
I guess all that matters is that she came back more exuberant than when she had left. She's happy and that's what matters.