stepping stones
I'm gradually getting ready to move. I've moved a bit of stuff down to the garage, and just now I went and got some boxes at the dollar store. I'm not exactly sure when I'm moving, since it will depend on when my landlady finds someone. I know it will be by the end of the month.
At first, I was worried that I would get dependent on this "structure living" environment so that I would not learn the basics of taking care of myself. Finally, I've decided that even with this plan, there are ways that I can be responsible for myself. I can start small if I have to and work up. I can take on little responsiblities, little by little. Slowly but surely, I hope to get used to an organized and clean environment where my medication is consistent and my daily routine has some consistency as well. Once that happens, I might actually pull some of the loose ends together that have been hanging out there for a long time. I need to get a copy of my birth certificate and social security card and finally get a new copy of my state ID. Once all that happens, I can begin seriously considering if I want a job, if I want to continue with school or what.
Another thing I need to make sure of is that I stay in charge of my own life. Despite the fact that others are helping me, I should still be the one to make decisions for myself. As a friend told me, if I hit a brick wall at 60 mph, I want to be the reason I did.
At first, I was worried that I would get dependent on this "structure living" environment so that I would not learn the basics of taking care of myself. Finally, I've decided that even with this plan, there are ways that I can be responsible for myself. I can start small if I have to and work up. I can take on little responsiblities, little by little. Slowly but surely, I hope to get used to an organized and clean environment where my medication is consistent and my daily routine has some consistency as well. Once that happens, I might actually pull some of the loose ends together that have been hanging out there for a long time. I need to get a copy of my birth certificate and social security card and finally get a new copy of my state ID. Once all that happens, I can begin seriously considering if I want a job, if I want to continue with school or what.
Another thing I need to make sure of is that I stay in charge of my own life. Despite the fact that others are helping me, I should still be the one to make decisions for myself. As a friend told me, if I hit a brick wall at 60 mph, I want to be the reason I did.