Friendship
Camp is done and done. I love/hate how camps make me feel. You get so close so fast you feel like it'll last forever and all too soon it ends.
I'm not really saying it's a bad thing though. I'm just saying that I miss them kids a lot. I don't know if it'll be the same from here onwards.
I wrote a letter of sorts awhile back when I was feeling low. I didn't edit it even though I think I should. You can see what my friendships are like.
To whoever it may concern,
You're my most reliable friend. Almost. I wanted to talk to you but you were unavailable. Several times. I don't know whether I can rely on you anymore.
Sometimes, I wonder whether you meant those things we talked about. Maybe it was, then. Maybe you don't mean it anymore and you don't need me as much as I need you now.
To whoever it may concern,
I wanted to talk to you the other day. And the other day other than that day. I wanted to comment on your fb status or 'like' your photos. I wanted to know how you were doing and how are the others?
But we haven't talked for so long I'm afraid you might have forgotten about me. Maybe you'd question the significance (or insignificance, for that matter) of my life in yours now.
Maybe you'd think that I was weird and why am I on your friends' list again? Maybe the phase where I'm in your life is over.
To whoever it may concern,
I miss you and I've been wanting to email you forever. To know how you were doing and are you fine there?
But each time I turn on the computer, the Internet distracts me and what was I supposed to do with the computer again?
I'm sorry and it's my fault. I just wanted you to know that I still think about you from time to time. More time than you could ever guess.
For whoever it may concern,
I know the time we got to know each other was such a brief period but I feel like I've known you guys for several years albeit the tiny discomforts I sometimes feel.
As soon as we got posted to our different schools, we quickly got separated. Like, we never knew each other in the first place. However, I see your fb statuses and wonder about you guys sometimes. Then there are some of you who are still as tight as ever and I envy you guys so much. Maybe if I made an effort we could still be in touch. Maybe not.
To whoever it may concern,
You don't know me and I don't know you either. Or maybe we do. But I think it's nice if we do become friends. We have so much in common it's too much weird coincidences.
To whoever it may concern,
We've known each other for so long. It shouldn't be weird for us to talk or suggest a get together. But we're in different schools now and our syllabuses are different. Our exams are at different timings. You seem so busy with your new school and your new co-curricular activities and your new (& some old & closer) friends.
I don't know when is the right time to talk to you without potentially bothering you. I don't want to be nuisance but I don't want to by a fly on the wall either.
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