Bad Dreams and Supernovae
So...last night I had this awful, awful dream. A mixture of people I know and people I don't were at a British boarding school for some reason doing normal LOL-School-Dream things. And things started to get weird, and for some reason we all had to evacuate, so everyone went up the steep hill in front of the school. I was one of the last people to leave the building, and as I was leaving, I saw someone dousing everything with gasoline because they were going to blow up the building. So I go up the hill to warn everyone not to go back into the building, but no one seems to hear me. I look around for Otto, but I can't find him, until I see him running back down the hill towards the building. I yell after him to tell him not to, but either he can't hear me or he doesn't care, because he says "I'll be right back" and runs in. Seconds later the building explodes. Then the administration takes us into another building to talk to us about what happened, but they pull me and two other kids into a side room. It turned out that the people in the room were people who had family members or close friends who had died or been seriously injured. I saw the guy who had taken us into the room had a paper with three big red X's on them, and one of them said, "Matthias Otto" underneath the X. I started freaking out. "Is he alive? Can I see him?" And the guy didn't even look up. "No, he's dead." And then I couldn't handle it--I woke up. And when I woke up Otto wasn't next to me because he had gone to monkey lab. I felt miserable and couldn't go back to sleep.
So this effectively woke me up an hour too early and cast a bizarre gloom on the day. I dunno, I guess I've been feeling kind of uneasy lately. Just in general. Tiffany and Rhys had a fight that left its shadow on me and Otto. Emilia left, which was unfortunate for me. I've been getting increasingly crampy and weepy, probably au cause de my birth control, which I'm going to change at the end of this month. My skin just crawls, sometimes. I don't know. Things have just felt weightier.
In slightly more cheerful news, my astronomy professor is terrificly bombastic. Today, he went around asking people to volunteer a piece of jewelry. "I'm talking gold or silver." Finally, this girl offered her silver bracelet and and Professor Kenney started making all sorts of small talk about it. "Oh, this is nice. Who gave it to you?" That sort of thing. And then he asked, "Do you know where it comes from?" She shrugged, and then he said "BECAUSE IT LOOKS LIKE IT CAME FROM A SUPERNOVA EXPLOSION!!!" It was fantastic.
Also, to. I printed out a blank calendar page for October and mapped out all of the big stuff (midterms, papers, problem sets, etc) and it turns out that I have five papers, two big tests, and three midterms, and all of the midterms take place within two days. Erk. I have to be on top of my shit this month. We'll see how it goes. Thanksgiving is going to be a very welcome break.
Maraout.