I heart spring break
So, here's the story. I suck at keeping my room clean. It is actually impossible for my room to stay clean for over a day. I honestly don't know how it gets so bad. I swear it can't be me that does it. It makes me think of the underwear gnomes on South Park. Well, this morning I cleaned my room. The color of my carpet is tanish white. :) My brother Tim enjoys joking about me making garbage angels in my room, like on The Simpsons.
Tim and I chilled today like normal. We smoked, like normal, then went and ordered a pizza from Little Caesars. $5 pizzas are the fuckin best, but you also have to have a side order of bread sticks. Note hat in EVERY batch of breadsticks there will be one fucked up looking one. It's too funny.
Today I planned on going to get applications and picking up my guitar. I have not accomplished either of these goals...
The Mighty Axe at Mall of America got stuck today. That sucks. I would be so fuckin pissed if that happened to me.
Also, there was a school shooting today at Red Lake. That's fuckin insane, but not unexpected. I can't say I'm suprised. It makes me kinda sad, I guess. I cant ever picture myself wanting to take away others lives. I don't care how much I hate someone, I would never understand something like that. I guess I'm glad that I can't understand it because to understand it you have to live it.
Today me and Tim were talking about a time about 3 1/2 years ago when we were at Ming Tree. It was me, my parents, Tim and Chris and maybe some other people that i cant remember. Anyways its not important. Well chris ordered milk and we all thought it was really funny. Well when he got it he kept going on about how the waitress has the hots for him. It was too funny. This is a time I will never forget. It is forever etched in my heart.
At the end of this summer it will be 4 years since Chris has died. That is too weird. How could it be that I haven't seen him in so long? I've forgotten the sound of his voice, but I still remember what he smelled like. Sometimes I can smell him around my house. He hangs around our house with us. It's nice. We used to cook together all the time. We were cooking buddies. Sometimes when I'm in the kitchen I can smell him. He smelled like cigs and cologne. I have his cologne. Sometimes I'll spray it just to remember. I miss him alot. By the time I die it will be so long since I've seen him. I dont know if I can wait so long. I guess I dont have a choice, but it seems so long of a time to not see someone you love with all of your heart, someone you love so much that it hurts.
I need to work on my faith. I wish my faith was strong, but it lacks. I don't know what I can do to become closer to God. I'm getting confirmed on April 15th or something like that. i didnt really want to get confirmed, but I know I should. Plus I should get a little bit a money for it. :) That is always a plus. I will have to go back to camp this summer.
I need to lose weight. I'm fatter than I am used to and I hate it. I just gotta lose a few more lbs and then I'm good. Hopefully I can do this during spring break. That would my my goal. Hopefully I will follow through with this.
I dont wanna go back to school. i kinda miss people, but school sucks ass. I would rather stay home and sleep.
Right now I am waiting for G-off to finish eating dinner so we can take off. I'm feeling really impatient, thats why I am writing so much lol. Well, I am gonna get ready to head out. Peace out
Tim and I chilled today like normal. We smoked, like normal, then went and ordered a pizza from Little Caesars. $5 pizzas are the fuckin best, but you also have to have a side order of bread sticks. Note hat in EVERY batch of breadsticks there will be one fucked up looking one. It's too funny.
Today I planned on going to get applications and picking up my guitar. I have not accomplished either of these goals...
The Mighty Axe at Mall of America got stuck today. That sucks. I would be so fuckin pissed if that happened to me.
Also, there was a school shooting today at Red Lake. That's fuckin insane, but not unexpected. I can't say I'm suprised. It makes me kinda sad, I guess. I cant ever picture myself wanting to take away others lives. I don't care how much I hate someone, I would never understand something like that. I guess I'm glad that I can't understand it because to understand it you have to live it.
Today me and Tim were talking about a time about 3 1/2 years ago when we were at Ming Tree. It was me, my parents, Tim and Chris and maybe some other people that i cant remember. Anyways its not important. Well chris ordered milk and we all thought it was really funny. Well when he got it he kept going on about how the waitress has the hots for him. It was too funny. This is a time I will never forget. It is forever etched in my heart.
At the end of this summer it will be 4 years since Chris has died. That is too weird. How could it be that I haven't seen him in so long? I've forgotten the sound of his voice, but I still remember what he smelled like. Sometimes I can smell him around my house. He hangs around our house with us. It's nice. We used to cook together all the time. We were cooking buddies. Sometimes when I'm in the kitchen I can smell him. He smelled like cigs and cologne. I have his cologne. Sometimes I'll spray it just to remember. I miss him alot. By the time I die it will be so long since I've seen him. I dont know if I can wait so long. I guess I dont have a choice, but it seems so long of a time to not see someone you love with all of your heart, someone you love so much that it hurts.
I need to work on my faith. I wish my faith was strong, but it lacks. I don't know what I can do to become closer to God. I'm getting confirmed on April 15th or something like that. i didnt really want to get confirmed, but I know I should. Plus I should get a little bit a money for it. :) That is always a plus. I will have to go back to camp this summer.
I need to lose weight. I'm fatter than I am used to and I hate it. I just gotta lose a few more lbs and then I'm good. Hopefully I can do this during spring break. That would my my goal. Hopefully I will follow through with this.
I dont wanna go back to school. i kinda miss people, but school sucks ass. I would rather stay home and sleep.
Right now I am waiting for G-off to finish eating dinner so we can take off. I'm feeling really impatient, thats why I am writing so much lol. Well, I am gonna get ready to head out. Peace out