ohmigosh
yeah.
i accpeted the america scholarship.i am so scared though. amazingly scared. i have never been this scared in my life. Never.
i feel sick with worry, fear and excitement all at the same time.
it is possible there are people that i won't be able to say goodbye too. actually i know there are people i will hate to say goodbye too.
even though its not forever.
i don't know what i have just gotten myself into.
i know i have to do this.
mainly because i don't know if i will be strong enough to do it.
i can hardly believe i have taken it.
it feels unreal.
it is all i can think of.
ohmigosh.
god i'm sorry nat. i really am. and i really will be there for you. as soon as i can. i guess i just need to prove this to myself. i don't know why.
perhaps i am sort of running away.
or running too.
i don't know anymore.
god alimighty, give me strength
i accpeted the america scholarship.i am so scared though. amazingly scared. i have never been this scared in my life. Never.
i feel sick with worry, fear and excitement all at the same time.
it is possible there are people that i won't be able to say goodbye too. actually i know there are people i will hate to say goodbye too.
even though its not forever.
i don't know what i have just gotten myself into.
i know i have to do this.
mainly because i don't know if i will be strong enough to do it.
i can hardly believe i have taken it.
it feels unreal.
it is all i can think of.
ohmigosh.
god i'm sorry nat. i really am. and i really will be there for you. as soon as i can. i guess i just need to prove this to myself. i don't know why.
perhaps i am sort of running away.
or running too.
i don't know anymore.
god alimighty, give me strength