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ok... so it came time to face up my fear of the torture chamber, the hell hole, that horrible place where no one really wants to be - the gym... and it really wasnt that bad... ok, so my legs cained, and i told sheree never to talk to me again half way through the stupid circuit class.... right after the lady asked me if i was still alive, but it was good... like i feel good now, heaps energised, which doesnt happen very often... and it makes me want to eat healthy too... which i would be doing right now if heather wasnt dumb and put my orange in the freezer (stupoid heather- my tummy is rumbling!) but i will resist the temptation of those dottie cookies lol... it made me feel so energised in fact, that i have commited to sheree, my entire morning at the pool, so we can swim laps... arent you proud of me? :D lol, i doubt you're as stoked on this latest health freak-out as i am... it hardly ever happens... this being the first time and all...
what else... ok, i have a question to put to you... the more you get to know someone, is it the more or less mysterious they become? i just have a friend, that lately everytime they say something, its a side i have never seen, and its that intrguing kind, but you know you cant push it, because it will all just bottle up again... kinda makes you feel privaleged that you know just this much about them... well thats how it makes me feel any way...
ever been around someone, and you know they are upset... well you dont know it as such, but youy can FEEL it? like its so there... its just all you can feel and smell and taste and hear... just this horrid sadness, like waves crashing o rocks on a really windy and lonely day... or like watching a black and white movie of a field of all these bright flowers... something is missing... someone to share with, someone to keep you warm, some colour... yeah, i sat next to someone like that today... one of the worst feelings ever, because you know, it doesnt matter what you do, or what you say, you wont make it better, because pain feels different to everybody...
and i miss my beautiful boy... i miss my best friend... i wanna just be able to walk along the beach and talk bout everything, but nothing at the same time... 8 hours is both a blessing and a curse...
and natto, i miss you to the moon and back too... love you heaps...
luv everybody, Jess ~xox~
what else... ok, i have a question to put to you... the more you get to know someone, is it the more or less mysterious they become? i just have a friend, that lately everytime they say something, its a side i have never seen, and its that intrguing kind, but you know you cant push it, because it will all just bottle up again... kinda makes you feel privaleged that you know just this much about them... well thats how it makes me feel any way...
ever been around someone, and you know they are upset... well you dont know it as such, but youy can FEEL it? like its so there... its just all you can feel and smell and taste and hear... just this horrid sadness, like waves crashing o rocks on a really windy and lonely day... or like watching a black and white movie of a field of all these bright flowers... something is missing... someone to share with, someone to keep you warm, some colour... yeah, i sat next to someone like that today... one of the worst feelings ever, because you know, it doesnt matter what you do, or what you say, you wont make it better, because pain feels different to everybody...
and i miss my beautiful boy... i miss my best friend... i wanna just be able to walk along the beach and talk bout everything, but nothing at the same time... 8 hours is both a blessing and a curse...
and natto, i miss you to the moon and back too... love you heaps...
luv everybody, Jess ~xox~