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I'm having nightmares about abandonment issues. Tonight I woke up from a nightmare where I fought with my ex-husband and accidently stabbed him in the stomach. My best friend Dawn was there in the dream, but I didn't see Jeff at all. The dream took place in my parents' old farmhouse, and Dawn was sitting on the couch, but Jeff wasn't there at all.
I fear that I'll lose him and have nowhere to go if we break up. Granted, I know that won't happen because I still have my name on a lease with my friend Chris and can move back in with him if necessary. But I love Jeff and don't want to lose him. Maybe it's because I've been left to my own devices for so long that I subconsciously can't trust people not to leave me. I know that life goes on and friendships come and go, but these dreams keep haunting me.
I fear that I'll lose him and have nowhere to go if we break up. Granted, I know that won't happen because I still have my name on a lease with my friend Chris and can move back in with him if necessary. But I love Jeff and don't want to lose him. Maybe it's because I've been left to my own devices for so long that I subconsciously can't trust people not to leave me. I know that life goes on and friendships come and go, but these dreams keep haunting me.