0415 wake up time = really cranky Mommy
I had the hardest time trying to fall asleep last night. Between the stupid Dr. Pepper I drank with dinner (no more caffeine after like 1600 for me) and doing something to my neck/back connection area in gymnastics last night I couldn't fall asleep. After laying there for an hour and a half I came out to the living room and watched tv for a while. Did you know that VH1 Classic shows Pop Up Video at like 0100?! Anyway. So I finally got to bed around 0130 and probably fell asleep soon after. Then Monkey woke up at 0415. You've gotta be kidding me. So I went in, changed his diaper, held him and rocked him. His head was starting to drift off my shoulder so I went to put him in his crib and he started to cry. At that point I was too tired and going on so little sleep that I didn't care. He wasn't hungry, he was freshly changed and he wasn't teething so all he wanted was to be held and I couldn't stay up any longer without a risk of me falling asleep in the glider while holding him and then dropping him. He cried for like a minute then played/babbled/whined/cried/etc for the next hour and a half. So he never went back to sleep, I never got back to sleep and I'm running on just shy of 3 hours of sleep. Needless to say I'm not the nicest person at the moment.
He's down for a nap now but he hasn't fallen asleep. Once he does though man I'm getting in bed and napping too.
So last night I found out that the place I'm taking my gymnastics class does private lessons. I'm DYING to take one private lesson a week on top of my group class. Since my car is paid off now (yay!) we have $280/month freed up. But I got knocked back into reality last night when I asked if others would take the class or use the money to pay off debt on a message board and just over 50% said pay off debt first with the extra money. I know it's the right thing but it just sucks. We won't be out of credit card debt until next year around this time and that's only if we get a good tax return and hubby gets a reenlistment bonus (which isn't guaranteed). It would only be about $100/month for once class a week (they're $25/hour classes and I'd only be taking one 1 hour class a week) but I know that money could be used best going on the stupid credit card.
I hate, HATE that we have credit card debt. I don't even know where the hell it came from. I had ZERO debit (other than my student loans) when we got married. One year later we had a huge amount of credit card debt. Hubby had some going into the marriage that I didn't know about. Then when we would need something/want something he'd say "We'll just throw it on the credit card." The 2 credit cards (store cards but still) I had before marriage were always paid off monthly. He knew that's how I managed money. Nothing carried a balance. So when he would say "We'll just throw it on the credit card." I always assumed (I know, I know) that he meant "With the intention of paying it off when the bill comes." Apparently not. And had I known this I would have said no to a LOT of purchases we made when we were first married.
It's times like this when I wish I still had my own job. So that I could use my own money to take the class. I miss having my own money that I make for stuff I want. I hate having to ask if we have the money to buy stuff. Hubby keeps saying "It's your money too!" but I just don't feel that way. I mean I get it and all but...it's not like before when I had my own account and paid my own student loans and car payments and could buy whatever I wanted as long as I had the money. Now he pays my remaining student loan. He made the last 10 payments on my car (luckily that's all he had to pay considering how much I paid on it last year, enough to pay it off a year early this April). I feel the need to ask him to buy anything, ANYTHING at all b/c I never know if we have the money.
I guess I'm just depressed and in a bad mood due to this really crappy morning. I think I'm going to shower then nap. Let's hope Monkey takes a nice long 2-3 hour nap this morning.
He's down for a nap now but he hasn't fallen asleep. Once he does though man I'm getting in bed and napping too.
So last night I found out that the place I'm taking my gymnastics class does private lessons. I'm DYING to take one private lesson a week on top of my group class. Since my car is paid off now (yay!) we have $280/month freed up. But I got knocked back into reality last night when I asked if others would take the class or use the money to pay off debt on a message board and just over 50% said pay off debt first with the extra money. I know it's the right thing but it just sucks. We won't be out of credit card debt until next year around this time and that's only if we get a good tax return and hubby gets a reenlistment bonus (which isn't guaranteed). It would only be about $100/month for once class a week (they're $25/hour classes and I'd only be taking one 1 hour class a week) but I know that money could be used best going on the stupid credit card.
I hate, HATE that we have credit card debt. I don't even know where the hell it came from. I had ZERO debit (other than my student loans) when we got married. One year later we had a huge amount of credit card debt. Hubby had some going into the marriage that I didn't know about. Then when we would need something/want something he'd say "We'll just throw it on the credit card." The 2 credit cards (store cards but still) I had before marriage were always paid off monthly. He knew that's how I managed money. Nothing carried a balance. So when he would say "We'll just throw it on the credit card." I always assumed (I know, I know) that he meant "With the intention of paying it off when the bill comes." Apparently not. And had I known this I would have said no to a LOT of purchases we made when we were first married.
It's times like this when I wish I still had my own job. So that I could use my own money to take the class. I miss having my own money that I make for stuff I want. I hate having to ask if we have the money to buy stuff. Hubby keeps saying "It's your money too!" but I just don't feel that way. I mean I get it and all but...it's not like before when I had my own account and paid my own student loans and car payments and could buy whatever I wanted as long as I had the money. Now he pays my remaining student loan. He made the last 10 payments on my car (luckily that's all he had to pay considering how much I paid on it last year, enough to pay it off a year early this April). I feel the need to ask him to buy anything, ANYTHING at all b/c I never know if we have the money.
I guess I'm just depressed and in a bad mood due to this really crappy morning. I think I'm going to shower then nap. Let's hope Monkey takes a nice long 2-3 hour nap this morning.