I'll give you my heart on a string
I'm not as good of a person as I could be
I feel like I'm not living up to my own expectations
it's a tad pathetic when I'd rather sleep all day
then accomplish anything
whether it just be riding my horse or doing something spectacular
when it's all said and done
it's the little things added together that make a life
and I don't want my life to be sleep
I'm going to try to start going to bed at night
and waking up in the morning :)
I went to Twilight with hannah and sam last night
okay, so it wasn't as good as the books
but honestly, I don't know how they could make it that good
and how are they supposed to know what each and every one of us pictured everything?
it's our own imagination, how can they drag that out of everyone's mind and put it on a screen
the special effects weren't that great but again, with what they had to make they did a pretty good job
I keep saying 'they' because I don't actually know who the producer is
I suppose I could look it up
I want culture
I want to learn things
I know I'm a deep and passionate person
but does anyone else see that?
I've learned to be happy
you have to create your own happiness
(I put that on my spaaaaace)
mmkay back to twilight - I thought of something :)
the way Bella and Edward look into each others eyes was the way Micah and I did
I'll look into Derek's eyes and he thinks I need something
like I'm waiting to get his attention or something, but I just want to look at him :)
I think he doesn't realize that because he's high...
he smokes pot a lot
I see something in him that I can't explain
I know he's great
and he's so smart
he's going to quit smoking within the next couple years (after he graduates)
I hope I'm still around so I can see what he's like then :)
because honestly, if he's this amazing now
what will he be like then?!
my dream guy
when we hang out with my family (he's not high, obviously)
and I have so much fun with him
he's witty and goofy, like me
I don't want to portrey (sp?) him as a bad person
because he isn't at all
he's a great guy
and I mean that 110%
so just 'cause he's a pot head doesn't mean he's dumb, kay guys?
he's just boring when he's high
Secondhand Serenade
^ fallin' in love with them!
Awake makes me think of Derek
I try to keep my mood content
always
I'm getting better at being happy :)
depression doesn't run my life anymore
but maybe it does, if I'm sleeping all the time
that's a sign of depression
I have so much to learn
but I don't know where to begin
who will teach me!?
I want to know your guys' thoughts of me?
honest thoughts
even if it's brutally honest
I'm a bitch
people tell me that a lot
but I feel like to show people I'm not interested in hooking up with them
that I have to be mean
otherwise guys think they have a chance
and they don't
but seriously
most people just annoy the living shit out of me!
that sounds so bad
I'd like to think of myself as an open-minded person
and understanding
but how understanding can I be if I'm rude?
>:( well I'm grumpy now
self-realization is incredibly important
I like it :) heh
I used to be really good at spelling
now I have to think about things for a minute
am I getting dumb?
being out of school makes me feel stupid
mmkay bye guys!
I'm going to a purse party with my mother and sister :)
then hanging out with some old friends I haven't seen in long time
I feel like I'm not living up to my own expectations
it's a tad pathetic when I'd rather sleep all day
then accomplish anything
whether it just be riding my horse or doing something spectacular
when it's all said and done
it's the little things added together that make a life
and I don't want my life to be sleep
I'm going to try to start going to bed at night
and waking up in the morning :)
I went to Twilight with hannah and sam last night
okay, so it wasn't as good as the books
but honestly, I don't know how they could make it that good
and how are they supposed to know what each and every one of us pictured everything?
it's our own imagination, how can they drag that out of everyone's mind and put it on a screen
the special effects weren't that great but again, with what they had to make they did a pretty good job
I keep saying 'they' because I don't actually know who the producer is
I suppose I could look it up
I want culture
I want to learn things
I know I'm a deep and passionate person
but does anyone else see that?
I've learned to be happy
you have to create your own happiness
(I put that on my spaaaaace)
mmkay back to twilight - I thought of something :)
the way Bella and Edward look into each others eyes was the way Micah and I did
I'll look into Derek's eyes and he thinks I need something
like I'm waiting to get his attention or something, but I just want to look at him :)
I think he doesn't realize that because he's high...
he smokes pot a lot
I see something in him that I can't explain
I know he's great
and he's so smart
he's going to quit smoking within the next couple years (after he graduates)
I hope I'm still around so I can see what he's like then :)
because honestly, if he's this amazing now
what will he be like then?!
my dream guy
when we hang out with my family (he's not high, obviously)
and I have so much fun with him
he's witty and goofy, like me
I don't want to portrey (sp?) him as a bad person
because he isn't at all
he's a great guy
and I mean that 110%
so just 'cause he's a pot head doesn't mean he's dumb, kay guys?
he's just boring when he's high
Secondhand Serenade
^ fallin' in love with them!
Awake makes me think of Derek
I try to keep my mood content
always
I'm getting better at being happy :)
depression doesn't run my life anymore
but maybe it does, if I'm sleeping all the time
that's a sign of depression
I have so much to learn
but I don't know where to begin
who will teach me!?
I want to know your guys' thoughts of me?
honest thoughts
even if it's brutally honest
I'm a bitch
people tell me that a lot
but I feel like to show people I'm not interested in hooking up with them
that I have to be mean
otherwise guys think they have a chance
and they don't
but seriously
most people just annoy the living shit out of me!
that sounds so bad
I'd like to think of myself as an open-minded person
and understanding
but how understanding can I be if I'm rude?
>:( well I'm grumpy now
self-realization is incredibly important
I like it :) heh
I used to be really good at spelling
now I have to think about things for a minute
am I getting dumb?
being out of school makes me feel stupid
mmkay bye guys!
I'm going to a purse party with my mother and sister :)
then hanging out with some old friends I haven't seen in long time