let it all out.
I want to go to school next year to be a vet tech. although, just tonight I was talking to my mom about this and she doesn't see how that could be possible. buzzkill, seriously.
she says, "how are you going to pay for that? and rent? and books?"
"student loans, duh" she goes on to make me feel like shit by saying, "we make too much money for you to get a decent student loan"
apparently, the family business makes too much money in a year for me to be able to get a decent loan, but that kind of seems like a load of shit. we make a lot of money, but we spend a lot of money too. can't they see that? and it's not like my parents are willing (at all) to help me pay for school. they've seen first hand my laziness and lack of responsibility. this is terrible... I've been planning on going to school for a long time now. if I end up not being able to because of something like student loans, I'll probably end up standing on a street corner or dancing on a bar to make money for schooling.
I'm going to make an appointment with hayfield's councilor to see what I can do though, there's got to be a way I can get student loans.
I have two jobs right now. one is borderline pointless, though. I'm thinking about quitting, but I like the experience and the fact that I get to work with horses too much.
I'm too fucking emotional >:O
seriously, I hate it.
I cry too damn much.
I want Derek to be more lovey-dovey when clearly that isn't who he is.
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I'm done bitching.