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Okay, call me stupid. I really am. Why did I do it? Plain and simple curiousity, well now I'm about to have a flipping anxiety attack over it! No words can describe how I'm feeling, but it just plain hurts. I made the mistake of reading the comments in someone's journal. I know I shouldn't have, but I wondered what it was that could be making him so happy and it just ended up hurting me like a knife being plunged into my heart and soul. I wish so much that something could take this pain away and let me know that everything is going to be alright. I'm so sick of the pain. I want to move on. I really do, so why can't I? I don't know. It's like my heart is against me and it may always be. Forgive me if I turn away from you. It pains me, but I must do something to stop this pain. I really must... but know that I am still happy for you as much as it hurts me. :) Always.