meh. meh, meh meh. meh.
I'm in the office doing an assignment, and no one else is here so I can't vent... therefore, hellooo LJ! I know I haven't been spotted anywhere online lately, so I feel mega guilty for dumping here, but if you all feel imposed upon feel free to skip this entry. I won't mind- hell, I won't even know! XD It's funny cos it's true.
I am not coping right now. I hate life. I am NOT coping dammit! Feels good to write it out.
Between my family, two jobs and student politics and a full course load I was juggling everything, JUST. Then my bosses daughter gets really sick after giving birth, so I'm getting called in on all these extra shifts - which I can't say no to because we bloody need the money - our union president quits and the board elects a fuckwit in her place, I'm pushed to advise him to resign and when that backfires everyone leaves me holding the shitpile. All "Oh no, I didn't have anything to do with it, not me, it was all rei's idea". Backstabbing, gutless wonders who I thought were my friends. I thought it was important to have communication and NOT BE A HYPOCRITE by bagging him out in corners.... Politician is a dirty word. I have my integrity but it doesn't feel like it's worth much right now. Plus I have two massive assignments due within a week and I haven't started. And I feel like the worst mum - I have to work and do assignments during the school holidays and Brad is taking Theo camping and to see the inlaws. I'm missing out on his first real camping trip and will be at home by my sorry self for a whole week. Anyway, you know that feeling where you are juuust treading water and one tiny thing too much and suddenly - BAM - overwhelming.
Yeah. That.
Okay, here endeth the wallow in self pity. Sorry all.. I'll be alright in a week or two, just need to claw my way back on top. Hehe
Rei <3
I am not coping right now. I hate life. I am NOT coping dammit! Feels good to write it out.
Between my family, two jobs and student politics and a full course load I was juggling everything, JUST. Then my bosses daughter gets really sick after giving birth, so I'm getting called in on all these extra shifts - which I can't say no to because we bloody need the money - our union president quits and the board elects a fuckwit in her place, I'm pushed to advise him to resign and when that backfires everyone leaves me holding the shitpile. All "Oh no, I didn't have anything to do with it, not me, it was all rei's idea". Backstabbing, gutless wonders who I thought were my friends. I thought it was important to have communication and NOT BE A HYPOCRITE by bagging him out in corners.... Politician is a dirty word. I have my integrity but it doesn't feel like it's worth much right now. Plus I have two massive assignments due within a week and I haven't started. And I feel like the worst mum - I have to work and do assignments during the school holidays and Brad is taking Theo camping and to see the inlaws. I'm missing out on his first real camping trip and will be at home by my sorry self for a whole week. Anyway, you know that feeling where you are juuust treading water and one tiny thing too much and suddenly - BAM - overwhelming.
Yeah. That.
Okay, here endeth the wallow in self pity. Sorry all.. I'll be alright in a week or two, just need to claw my way back on top. Hehe
Rei <3