lots of things
first off....FLORIDA PICTURES!!
http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e258/Costellar/florida/
now to the deep stuff...
So let go
Good words to follow are always easier said than done. Really, its hard to just take in what someone says and understand it to the highest power. You may think you do but no one does. Especially me...I understand most things I'm told, but the people telling me aren't convinced..not ALL the time, but most. How do you show you know what you've learned to the max? Its harder than anything really, its like being pushed down, and as you are trying to get up you are repeatedly pushed down again..when do you make it to the top? When can you finally stand up and let it be known that you have overcome a fear? When can you get over something that is too high to overcome? How do you accomplish things that are out of reach? Or is it the question of....will you...can you...do you want to...Its like wanting to let go but your fingers are glued shut. Why....just let me free. I need to unleash my mind, break these chains that are holding me in. Its tough as hell but mom says I can do it. I have to, otherwise I'm going to continue to live with a fake smile when need be.
Besides the few tiny glitches going on in my head right now life has been good, I'm happy to say I have the best friends in the world. No matter what goes down they'll always be my favorite people, the ones I turn to first, and the ones I have the best time with. Sorry for the random subject changes throughout this haha. I'm not all with it right now.
::::::::::::::::::::::WOOOSHHH change to not so weird mode::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Can't wait until the ring dance..yeah yeah its only a little sophomore dance but fuck that thought, I have so much fun at these things..and I have a really gorgeous dress that I can't wait to wear. Work starts this Saturday, I'm so ready for it cause I think it will help me get my mind off of a looooot of things that need to be forgotten. Plus I'll be getting paid for it so it works out to my benefit, twice. Prom too will be amazinggggggggggg. With these 2 dance like events comming up I only see one small problem........
http://s41.photobucket.com/albums/e258/Costellar/florida/
now to the deep stuff...
So let go
Good words to follow are always easier said than done. Really, its hard to just take in what someone says and understand it to the highest power. You may think you do but no one does. Especially me...I understand most things I'm told, but the people telling me aren't convinced..not ALL the time, but most. How do you show you know what you've learned to the max? Its harder than anything really, its like being pushed down, and as you are trying to get up you are repeatedly pushed down again..when do you make it to the top? When can you finally stand up and let it be known that you have overcome a fear? When can you get over something that is too high to overcome? How do you accomplish things that are out of reach? Or is it the question of....will you...can you...do you want to...Its like wanting to let go but your fingers are glued shut. Why....just let me free. I need to unleash my mind, break these chains that are holding me in. Its tough as hell but mom says I can do it. I have to, otherwise I'm going to continue to live with a fake smile when need be.
Besides the few tiny glitches going on in my head right now life has been good, I'm happy to say I have the best friends in the world. No matter what goes down they'll always be my favorite people, the ones I turn to first, and the ones I have the best time with. Sorry for the random subject changes throughout this haha. I'm not all with it right now.
::::::::::::::::::::::WOOOSHHH change to not so weird mode::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Can't wait until the ring dance..yeah yeah its only a little sophomore dance but fuck that thought, I have so much fun at these things..and I have a really gorgeous dress that I can't wait to wear. Work starts this Saturday, I'm so ready for it cause I think it will help me get my mind off of a looooot of things that need to be forgotten. Plus I'll be getting paid for it so it works out to my benefit, twice. Prom too will be amazinggggggggggg. With these 2 dance like events comming up I only see one small problem........