it's hard to be
I see people on Twitter whose names are "blah blah (on hiatus)" and I just think... if you're on hiatus, why are you posting?
I'm perhaps irrationally upset at this year's RFFA. The first round of editing happened and I was told that my favorite part "dragged" and "added nothing to the narrative". But I'm a pro, so I know that it's not personal. It's just frustrating-- beyond frustrating-- to work hard and have to scrap something. I was also very bluntly told to cut back on my similes. I didn't think I had a problem until I did a ctrl+f for the word "like". I think that comes with having studied and translated the Classics. Virgil is known for his similes and metaphors.
I managed to go further back in our family tree than anyone before me because of Latin (more bc of French, really). I searched through 30+ years of early 19th century French civil documents, which are poorly kept and all handf-written. Then I worked backwards for baptisms, which are in Latin. Crazy days.
I wonder why so many literary sources call death an "adventure". Is it to calm people? Give them hope? My sleepy mind can think of 3 direct quotes calling death an adventure right tf now. I don't want an adventure. I want the chaos to stop. I want to sit in quietude and not be lonely.
My arms itch.