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I forgot I had this journal.. I hope everyone else did too b/c I don't need a bunch of ppl reading this - I'm probably just gonna bash ppl and myself in it.. so if you remember this journal.. please forget it..
she just told me that someday someone is going to sweep me off my feet - but I Don't want it anymore *FORGET IT! I'm hopeless and foolish for thinking for even a mere second anything other than that. I have been hit by a huge truck, and I'm thinking its okay as long as its not carried out.. JUST GET IT OVER WITH ALREADY...don't leave me here to suffer...
if I sound suicidal - I'm not..
but I will say that I'm terrified of my thoughts. I wanna think of you as the one person I can turn to - a best friend - and the person I gave everything up to. wow that worked hey?? doubtful. please just take that girl - and hurt her b/c she has never been hurt.. she will never feel a god damn thing and I want her to hurt.
he'll realize that she is the girl everyone knows she is.. and the girl she turned one of my best friends into.. goodbye to all three of you b/c I'm better than that - I won't become you to have you - you're even more hopeless then me..
she just told me that someday someone is going to sweep me off my feet - but I Don't want it anymore *FORGET IT! I'm hopeless and foolish for thinking for even a mere second anything other than that. I have been hit by a huge truck, and I'm thinking its okay as long as its not carried out.. JUST GET IT OVER WITH ALREADY...don't leave me here to suffer...
if I sound suicidal - I'm not..
but I will say that I'm terrified of my thoughts. I wanna think of you as the one person I can turn to - a best friend - and the person I gave everything up to. wow that worked hey?? doubtful. please just take that girl - and hurt her b/c she has never been hurt.. she will never feel a god damn thing and I want her to hurt.
he'll realize that she is the girl everyone knows she is.. and the girl she turned one of my best friends into.. goodbye to all three of you b/c I'm better than that - I won't become you to have you - you're even more hopeless then me..