Fits- A Madcap Story
Sitting yesterday in my living room, it hit me...I am moving to New York!. My goodness, even typing it a second ago, gave me a shock. WOW.
I broke into a slight crazed, hysterical laugh. A laugh of unbridled joy! Laughter that comes from deep in your soul. One that is filled with wonder and at the same time, that slight fear of the unknown. The one you feel when you plunge into something that is so foreign so unknown that every moment is like a breath of cold air on a hot day.
Since yesterday, I have been erupting in these moments of laughter. It has the feeling of a 'high' but not the bad ones. It is a high where I am still grounded.
I wish I could convey the feelings I am experiencing. I know that each of you (1.75 fans who read this- I think someone accidentally came across this boosting it from 1.5 Fans to 1.75) probably have an experience like this which cannot by summed up in words. Perhaps it can be expressed in Quantum Physics. It is a feeling so complicated that I dont know where to begin to express what is in me and on my mind.
Joy. Fear. Wonder. Happiness. Relief. Hope. Determination. Latte (thats for you JP). Resolve. Confusion. Unsettled. Worry. Giggly. Linear. Smiley. Sad. Change. Adventurous. Cautious. Turned on. Tuned in. Drop out. Optimistic.
I am not sure I mentioned it but my friends played a big part in this whole thing. Not only did they help me to prepare the documents but a few helped me study and prepare for the Math section which was a killer for me on the GRE but I did better than I thought. Though I did not do as well as I had hoped for on the Verbal. I also did pretty well on the Written. So to all my friends who helped me in all the ways that they do, that includes moral support, THANX
I broke into a slight crazed, hysterical laugh. A laugh of unbridled joy! Laughter that comes from deep in your soul. One that is filled with wonder and at the same time, that slight fear of the unknown. The one you feel when you plunge into something that is so foreign so unknown that every moment is like a breath of cold air on a hot day.
Since yesterday, I have been erupting in these moments of laughter. It has the feeling of a 'high' but not the bad ones. It is a high where I am still grounded.
I wish I could convey the feelings I am experiencing. I know that each of you (1.75 fans who read this- I think someone accidentally came across this boosting it from 1.5 Fans to 1.75) probably have an experience like this which cannot by summed up in words. Perhaps it can be expressed in Quantum Physics. It is a feeling so complicated that I dont know where to begin to express what is in me and on my mind.
Joy. Fear. Wonder. Happiness. Relief. Hope. Determination. Latte (thats for you JP). Resolve. Confusion. Unsettled. Worry. Giggly. Linear. Smiley. Sad. Change. Adventurous. Cautious. Turned on. Tuned in. Drop out. Optimistic.
I am not sure I mentioned it but my friends played a big part in this whole thing. Not only did they help me to prepare the documents but a few helped me study and prepare for the Math section which was a killer for me on the GRE but I did better than I thought. Though I did not do as well as I had hoped for on the Verbal. I also did pretty well on the Written. So to all my friends who helped me in all the ways that they do, that includes moral support, THANX