How do you like your eggs?
A friend of mine asked me a good question and I thought the reply made a good post. Also does anyone have any good movie recomendations? I had a dream about the firs the other night, the first dream of life outside of the trip, actually the first dream I've remembered in a long time. I also had this deja vu experience with standing at the gas station at 6 in the morning as workers arvived to get on the bus. I also had this day where I was very content the whole day just about. The weather is killer beautiful here and every time I drive down the gorge it gets more amazing to me each time. I love the fall and it is just blowing my mind how beautiful the season is. Some apple trees change color and start droping leaves before the apples so you get these amazing colors plus the fruit all colored up too. And then you have a whole feild of them...that you get to drive up and down all day long...and smell them...and sometimes it smells fermented, but we're off subject now. Anyway here are some more substantial thoughts (more being a relative term) from inside my head thanks to the prodding of an amigo.
What is God teaching me...?
Well I've learned some from my experiences about ways in which I am still prejudice. I like to think that with my diverse up bringing and purposeful initiation with people I am above prejudice. I the first couple of weeks though even though I had nothing against any worker here I always moved with suspision instead of trust. I do that in other areas of life too.
I'm visual...visual learner definately, all my camp diagrams and cartoon bible study notes make sense to me now...they weren't just fun ways to process.
I've learned for the 100th time (and I love this lesson and I want to just keep right on learning it and telling others about it everytime) that I don't have to fear what I will eat or wear or where I will live. In Spokane and need a job? God provides the most beautiful set up ever...I don't think I could even find a job, let alone qualify for one, so perfect to my situation. Housing, hours, pay, kids on the weekend, dessert, outdoors, new cultural experience, gas paid for, language opportunities, being a light, instant gratification work, within my capacity, easy on the brain, great bosses, time to be still and not worry about what is next.
I've watched myself choose wrong instead of right in two distinct situations and hopefully God is using those to mold me.
Also I am trying to better understand where I am going to draw the line for myself in regards to what is a sabath and what boundaries do I need to set in order to honor God and consequently reap the benefits of keeping it.
I'm hurting in the area of trying to get a handle on how I can spend my money. I am making enough to the point where I feel like I have some money that I want to blow on fun things for me. Basically Games, really expensive collectable games that take like...a lot of money to get what I want. I've been excited to work towards getting it (and it motivates me in the feild somethimes) but I just read a chapter in Blue Like Jazz that is making me feel conflicted about spending any money at all on stuff like that. Help! What do I do with this tug o war that plays on me. This has been an quandry for me since the early 90's. I thing God has given me the gift of generosity but I also have this streak of merchandise desire. How come I have the feeling that unless God has all my money I won't be able to live right? Maybe cause it's true...but is it so simple, does God say "Yeah I gave you that, that's yours buy what ever you want since you've given me 10%", or does he say "Yes there are starving children who can't provide for themselves, you can live on less than half of what you make, give the rest to them."
So that's some of it, in lieu of that question I get the next one in line which is what are you doing with your time..."Can I in good conscience go joy riding across the states when God has a mission that he is tring to accomplish?" Shouldn't I be trying to find where I can join that process and get crackin on the next step?
Good thing I've got until at least the 2nd to think on it.
Also I've been thinking about the fact that we are supposed to grow in Christ in the context of a community and how that may be an issue if I'm transient right now. (I got interviewed by the department of labor inspector today and found out I fit the description of migrant worker while she was taking down my liscence info.)
Sometimes I think I think too much and some of my friends agree with me. I gotta just relax...right?
Doh!
What is God teaching me...?
Well I've learned some from my experiences about ways in which I am still prejudice. I like to think that with my diverse up bringing and purposeful initiation with people I am above prejudice. I the first couple of weeks though even though I had nothing against any worker here I always moved with suspision instead of trust. I do that in other areas of life too.
I'm visual...visual learner definately, all my camp diagrams and cartoon bible study notes make sense to me now...they weren't just fun ways to process.
I've learned for the 100th time (and I love this lesson and I want to just keep right on learning it and telling others about it everytime) that I don't have to fear what I will eat or wear or where I will live. In Spokane and need a job? God provides the most beautiful set up ever...I don't think I could even find a job, let alone qualify for one, so perfect to my situation. Housing, hours, pay, kids on the weekend, dessert, outdoors, new cultural experience, gas paid for, language opportunities, being a light, instant gratification work, within my capacity, easy on the brain, great bosses, time to be still and not worry about what is next.
I've watched myself choose wrong instead of right in two distinct situations and hopefully God is using those to mold me.
Also I am trying to better understand where I am going to draw the line for myself in regards to what is a sabath and what boundaries do I need to set in order to honor God and consequently reap the benefits of keeping it.
I'm hurting in the area of trying to get a handle on how I can spend my money. I am making enough to the point where I feel like I have some money that I want to blow on fun things for me. Basically Games, really expensive collectable games that take like...a lot of money to get what I want. I've been excited to work towards getting it (and it motivates me in the feild somethimes) but I just read a chapter in Blue Like Jazz that is making me feel conflicted about spending any money at all on stuff like that. Help! What do I do with this tug o war that plays on me. This has been an quandry for me since the early 90's. I thing God has given me the gift of generosity but I also have this streak of merchandise desire. How come I have the feeling that unless God has all my money I won't be able to live right? Maybe cause it's true...but is it so simple, does God say "Yeah I gave you that, that's yours buy what ever you want since you've given me 10%", or does he say "Yes there are starving children who can't provide for themselves, you can live on less than half of what you make, give the rest to them."
So that's some of it, in lieu of that question I get the next one in line which is what are you doing with your time..."Can I in good conscience go joy riding across the states when God has a mission that he is tring to accomplish?" Shouldn't I be trying to find where I can join that process and get crackin on the next step?
Good thing I've got until at least the 2nd to think on it.
Also I've been thinking about the fact that we are supposed to grow in Christ in the context of a community and how that may be an issue if I'm transient right now. (I got interviewed by the department of labor inspector today and found out I fit the description of migrant worker while she was taking down my liscence info.)
Sometimes I think I think too much and some of my friends agree with me. I gotta just relax...right?
Doh!