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I'm not sure why I'm writing this. I guess it's mainly to keep in touch with everyone from back home (whether you are at home or not). Going to college has been... life-changing to say the least. I didn't know how it was going to be living away from home, no crutch to lean on, but the transition has been quite smooth. I live everyday, deciding what I want to do and no one telling me to get out of bed, obligations, etc. But this independence was not as refreshing as I wanted it to be. There is too much going on in the world around me. Constant activities, chances to become involved. I feel like I'm not doing enough, but that really isn't at the forefront of my mind. It's really just the lack of new experiences really...
....I always want more out of my life than I really do. Part of me wants to move on to better things (in any sense of the word) and part of me wants everything to stay where it is. I always look on the past with nostalgia, whether they were actually good times or not. To be honest, this is all irrelevant in a sense. I really am happy and am having a wonderful experience. I just wonder if I really am aware of it enough, and taking advantage of it.
I got a girlfriend the first week of school (as I'm sure many can relate) and it went well for awhile. Now we hardly see each other, we always have too much work to do, don't talk, it's just kind of awkward in the worst sense. The worst thing is to feel restricted by an unneeded relationship, but I don't know if that's the case. The fact that we can't even have the time to sit down in talk about it is a bad sign, but it wasn't going badly, which is one of the reasons why it's so conflicting....
Besides all this, College has been invigorating. I've been able to push myself farther in academics, friendships, passion for the arts, etc. more than I ever had been before in new situations. I've read some fantastic literature and have certainly made life-long friends. I still miss you everyone back home too, and want to make sure those ties don't break. I'm going to be making an extremely conscious effort to keep in touch.
I guess it's important to know what you want out of life, but taking that with a grain of salt by being open to change. Make any sense?
The world may turn, but we still stand in one place.... How do we move with it?
P.S. Please let me know what you guys are up to, I know this isn't the best way to communicate, but I really want to know.
....I always want more out of my life than I really do. Part of me wants to move on to better things (in any sense of the word) and part of me wants everything to stay where it is. I always look on the past with nostalgia, whether they were actually good times or not. To be honest, this is all irrelevant in a sense. I really am happy and am having a wonderful experience. I just wonder if I really am aware of it enough, and taking advantage of it.
I got a girlfriend the first week of school (as I'm sure many can relate) and it went well for awhile. Now we hardly see each other, we always have too much work to do, don't talk, it's just kind of awkward in the worst sense. The worst thing is to feel restricted by an unneeded relationship, but I don't know if that's the case. The fact that we can't even have the time to sit down in talk about it is a bad sign, but it wasn't going badly, which is one of the reasons why it's so conflicting....
Besides all this, College has been invigorating. I've been able to push myself farther in academics, friendships, passion for the arts, etc. more than I ever had been before in new situations. I've read some fantastic literature and have certainly made life-long friends. I still miss you everyone back home too, and want to make sure those ties don't break. I'm going to be making an extremely conscious effort to keep in touch.
I guess it's important to know what you want out of life, but taking that with a grain of salt by being open to change. Make any sense?
The world may turn, but we still stand in one place.... How do we move with it?
P.S. Please let me know what you guys are up to, I know this isn't the best way to communicate, but I really want to know.