SPEAKING ITS NAME

[manyfacesofme22]

Hi, flist.

Well, it is the eve of the most important exams I have sat thus far in my life, so obviously I’m going to talk about

MY SEXUALITY.

Ahaha what is this “supposed to be applying for Oxford” of which you speak?

Anyway. For (*thinks*) probably about two years I have been seriously considering being a homosexual. Yes, I am pretty sure I like

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[podicus]

Well, I'm probably the last person who should be trying to advise you, but I'm kind of in the opposite situation (I like boys but think I like girls too) so let's try and muddle through this together.

I think the problem (for both of us) is woeful lack of experience. Honestly, for me, it's always been about personality. If there's someone that you like, someone who gives you butterflies in your stomach and makes your palms sweat, etc, etc, then it's how they make you feel that's important, not their gender. I mean, you're only what - 17? 18? Knowing who you are and what you are is something that comes with time and experience. Go out there, experiment a little, find out what you like. Oh, and when you get to university join their LGBTQ because I haven't and it's something that I regret.

It's totally not weird that you like how your Nun Girl (haha) makes you feel, I knew exactly what you mean. I gained a girlcrush on one of my classmates whilst we were on a 3-week trip to South Africa, and due to circumstances I ended up sharing a double bed with her for a week. It was something we could have said no to - I could have slept on the floor or something - but she seemed ok with it and even though I knew it would be kind of hard to sleep with her right there it gave me a guilty pleasure. So yeah. You're not the only one who's masochistic.

I don't know why I'm trying to sound all wise when I'm only a year older than you :/ but I hope this has been somewhat helpful? Probably not.

[manyfacesofme22]

Hurrah! Partners in awkard experimentation. We'll take on the world. I cannot tell you how nice it is to know someone in the same situation, and obviously by that I mean "how much sympathy I feel if this is equally scary and uncomfortable for you" and nothing at all sadistic.

Also about the uni LGBTQ (what does the Q stand for?) thing - If by the time I get to uni I'm a little more decided in that direction I will, but 1) in all probability I won't be and 2) At least one of the unis I'm applying to is deeply evangelical-Christian, so maybe not. Still, something to consider.

You are more than somewhat helpful, don't you dare worry about sounding preachy. Seriously I need all the advice I can get. I want someone to give me, like, a book. "How to Deal with Suprising and Unwanted Homosexual Urges whilst Sitting Exams" would just about do it.