Entry 8
[Private//Hackable]
It's been weeks and I still can't stop thinking about that day.
Would it really be that much easier if I remembered the past? Or would I still feel the same way I do about what Judai's doing--and what he plans to do? I want to think I wouldn't be as different as he says. I want to think that I'd still be like myself as I am now.
It's selfish, I know. I understand what I've done. Promising to protect him...by doing that, I'm following the same path I took in the past. And I feel like what he's doing isn't right. All this time and I still feel like it won't get him anywhere. I have a bad feeling that if anything, whatever he wants will only make everything worse.
I'll protect him. I've made that promise in two different worlds and I won't go back on that. Even when we were just kids, back before I ever really thought about it, it was my job to pull him out of hot water when he was being an idiot, and different universes or not they're still that same idiot in one way or another. But there's a difference between that and agreeing with everything he's doing--or turning against somebody else I call a friend.
If it comes to it, that Johan guy better be worth sticking my neck out for.
[/Private]
(OOC: Backdated...a good while, probably to around the beginning of the month.)
It's been weeks and I still can't stop thinking about that day.
Would it really be that much easier if I remembered the past? Or would I still feel the same way I do about what Judai's doing--and what he plans to do? I want to think I wouldn't be as different as he says. I want to think that I'd still be like myself as I am now.
It's selfish, I know. I understand what I've done. Promising to protect him...by doing that, I'm following the same path I took in the past. And I feel like what he's doing isn't right. All this time and I still feel like it won't get him anywhere. I have a bad feeling that if anything, whatever he wants will only make everything worse.
I'll protect him. I've made that promise in two different worlds and I won't go back on that. Even when we were just kids, back before I ever really thought about it, it was my job to pull him out of hot water when he was being an idiot, and different universes or not they're still that same idiot in one way or another. But there's a difference between that and agreeing with everything he's doing--or turning against somebody else I call a friend.
If it comes to it, that Johan guy better be worth sticking my neck out for.
[/Private]
(OOC: Backdated...a good while, probably to around the beginning of the month.)