Until the End of the World........or at least the summer.
Right now my life is distraught. I'm sick and depressed all time now, only a few things are keeping me happy. "Fuck" is the only outrageous word to describe this all and my current situation. I just realized that I can't succeed at what I'm going for, I can't win this won or any for that matter. I've conquered my situations by realizing the outcome of all of my situations like this. The only good thing about this is that it lit a fuse in my creative process in writing the new NutFunk album, it will be a concept album, the theme is the cycle of a relationship. I'm becoming really pessimistic about life and am just thinking about meaning, love, hate, death and what it all really means. I've written my thoughts about it somewhere. This one thing is gonna kill me and make me miserable, and only Andy knows about it. I'm feeling so contained at work when I'm there, I'm thinking about taking a leave of absence, but then I won't be getting steady paychecks. For the last few years I've pictured my life as a tv show, and all of the significant people in my life for which ever school year is a cast member. There's only one episode left this season, what'll happen.........