Emiphanies and ramblings...
I sort of came to a few conclusions about things to do with work and my major in college. I do have a quite creepy obsession with politics. Though after being offered this trial day at this last place to be a canvasser I came to a conclusion. I am not willing to put myself through 4+ years of college to earn a bachelor's degree in something I love (Political Science) only to be earning Oregon Minimum wage going around door to door every day of my life asking people for contribution for causes. When it comes to political causes, I will go and do political protests and things like activists rallies. Also, things like the naked bike ride but going door to door during all wierd ass hours of the day and night asking people for money seems like an honestly petty way of getting anything done in our system. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy the fact that I have the right to do that good ol' grassroots shit but it's just not my cup of tea. My heartstrings are once again pulling me back towards nursing.
I still want to go into labor and delivery and still again perhaps one day be a midwife. I know it is a very challanging career path but I want that challenge. I want that daily sastifaction of knowing that I was there to help someone in everyway I could in one of the hardest and rewarding times in their life. The satisfaction that I can constantly see myself making a differnce. With being a canvasser, I would get constant rejection with doors being slammed in my face, possibly having to jump fences to escape from dogs on people's property and since we live in a presidential democracy (the slowest type of democracy in the world) I would rarely get to see the progress I make because it takes FOR-FUCKING-EVER for anything to hit to senate or house and it's in a HUGE stack of other things that other people want to get changed and of course they can only get to a certain ammount of petitions a session.
Last term I think it was the main thing that turned me away from the nursing path was the fact that I had a lot of shit going on with planning my wedding, loosing my job, and that whole whore of babylon fiasco. I think that when I do go back to school that I will only go 3/4's time so I don't get overwhelmed. I must wait until at least winter term before I can go back because I owe the daycare about $500 because I lost the paper they gave me telling me when the payments were due and then I lost my job. Then again, I cannot wait any longer than winter term to go back because I will have to start paying back my student loans if I do. It looks like I will not be moving anytime soon as I can't afford it. I had to spend nearly all of my honeymoon fund just so I could pay my rent alone. So it also looks like I wont be going on my honeymoon. I almost fucking cried when I had to hand over my honeymoon money to the cashier at Walmart to get the money order for rent. I never thought it would get that bad.
Luckily, Kyle has an interview at the new Target opening out by the airport. I hope he gets it. It will be one tiny ray of hope if he does get it. I keep forgetting to file for unemployment and I need to go down to the DHS office and fill out the application for services again and turn the shit in. We currently are in debt way over our heads and trying not to freak out. Luckily, Michelle is too young to read and hasn't picked up on any of this yet. Anways, I am off.
Oh ya there aparently is a Nursing hiring freeze in Portland right now. Scary shit that I NEVER thought I'd see happen.
I still want to go into labor and delivery and still again perhaps one day be a midwife. I know it is a very challanging career path but I want that challenge. I want that daily sastifaction of knowing that I was there to help someone in everyway I could in one of the hardest and rewarding times in their life. The satisfaction that I can constantly see myself making a differnce. With being a canvasser, I would get constant rejection with doors being slammed in my face, possibly having to jump fences to escape from dogs on people's property and since we live in a presidential democracy (the slowest type of democracy in the world) I would rarely get to see the progress I make because it takes FOR-FUCKING-EVER for anything to hit to senate or house and it's in a HUGE stack of other things that other people want to get changed and of course they can only get to a certain ammount of petitions a session.
Last term I think it was the main thing that turned me away from the nursing path was the fact that I had a lot of shit going on with planning my wedding, loosing my job, and that whole whore of babylon fiasco. I think that when I do go back to school that I will only go 3/4's time so I don't get overwhelmed. I must wait until at least winter term before I can go back because I owe the daycare about $500 because I lost the paper they gave me telling me when the payments were due and then I lost my job. Then again, I cannot wait any longer than winter term to go back because I will have to start paying back my student loans if I do. It looks like I will not be moving anytime soon as I can't afford it. I had to spend nearly all of my honeymoon fund just so I could pay my rent alone. So it also looks like I wont be going on my honeymoon. I almost fucking cried when I had to hand over my honeymoon money to the cashier at Walmart to get the money order for rent. I never thought it would get that bad.
Luckily, Kyle has an interview at the new Target opening out by the airport. I hope he gets it. It will be one tiny ray of hope if he does get it. I keep forgetting to file for unemployment and I need to go down to the DHS office and fill out the application for services again and turn the shit in. We currently are in debt way over our heads and trying not to freak out. Luckily, Michelle is too young to read and hasn't picked up on any of this yet. Anways, I am off.
Oh ya there aparently is a Nursing hiring freeze in Portland right now. Scary shit that I NEVER thought I'd see happen.