The Burden of Reflecting
Tomorrow/Saturday is going to be a tough day for me but we'll see how it goes, i only want it to be over with and for everything to be ok, but i worry, as i should being in my position, about the consequences of failure.
I miss Kirsten, we chatted for ages in the library and it seemed like nothing was different, she made me smile like we used to and it took everything i could to not just grab her and hold her. I miss the tenderness i felt for her and the good times when we only needed to worry about each other, no-one else was needed.
I didn't think it would cut me up to even consider her with someone else but now the thought of it almost makes me want to cry. Actually only now am i begining to miss her properly do i want to cry about it.
How childish; but I would give anything right now to have her back.
I miss Kirsten, we chatted for ages in the library and it seemed like nothing was different, she made me smile like we used to and it took everything i could to not just grab her and hold her. I miss the tenderness i felt for her and the good times when we only needed to worry about each other, no-one else was needed.
I didn't think it would cut me up to even consider her with someone else but now the thought of it almost makes me want to cry. Actually only now am i begining to miss her properly do i want to cry about it.
How childish; but I would give anything right now to have her back.