Paul Newmans Eyes
Well its been a while - but then again it always has been in these sort of situations i guess.
Things here are going ok snowed under with work which is to be expected third year and all. Been ill, lying in bed hacking up different body parts etc but i think thats slowly going.
Part of me admires people who have such drive and direction in their lives. Take my history friend Sarah for example has wanted to be a teacher since she was a small child and now is able to fufil her dream and (as far as i know) will be fulfilled by the whole excercise. I on the otherhand know only vaguely which direction i want to go in. You may have noticed that it varies from visit home to visit home. I can't help but feel that those who are truly driven get what they want. I know a masters would be a good option for me but i don't know how to acheive it. I don't stand to get any help from mum and dad so its all going to have to be paid for by myself and whatever loans i can get. Hell i don't even have a real place to live. Staying at home is not a real option as there is blatantly not enough room for both rachel and me to study and i can't afford to live in leicester. I can only think i can take a year off and earn some money. I just worry that i'll get sucked into the rat race and there i'll be stuck, dragging my carcass unfulfilled around a wheel made of my own missed opportunities.
Oh well i'm off to dublin on friday i'll take loads of pictures and do a huge and i mean huge picture post.
Manhugs
Things here are going ok snowed under with work which is to be expected third year and all. Been ill, lying in bed hacking up different body parts etc but i think thats slowly going.
Part of me admires people who have such drive and direction in their lives. Take my history friend Sarah for example has wanted to be a teacher since she was a small child and now is able to fufil her dream and (as far as i know) will be fulfilled by the whole excercise. I on the otherhand know only vaguely which direction i want to go in. You may have noticed that it varies from visit home to visit home. I can't help but feel that those who are truly driven get what they want. I know a masters would be a good option for me but i don't know how to acheive it. I don't stand to get any help from mum and dad so its all going to have to be paid for by myself and whatever loans i can get. Hell i don't even have a real place to live. Staying at home is not a real option as there is blatantly not enough room for both rachel and me to study and i can't afford to live in leicester. I can only think i can take a year off and earn some money. I just worry that i'll get sucked into the rat race and there i'll be stuck, dragging my carcass unfulfilled around a wheel made of my own missed opportunities.
Oh well i'm off to dublin on friday i'll take loads of pictures and do a huge and i mean huge picture post.
Manhugs