Punchdrunk
Its been a very stressful couple of days combined with coursework and this whole money crap its really starting to take its toll. I feel drained. Fully. As if every part of my body just wants to sink into a deep, deep sleep. I'm sitting here in the library and i just look at the screen and it hurts my eyes to do it. Take whatever film noir vibe you get from that but i feel like its 2 in the morning and the sun is shining and everyone is awake but not really here. Its a bit of a dream world at the moment.
I had my first shift at Homebase and to be honest it was ridiculously easy. It is the sort of job that employs specifically people who have no aspiration to do better or relish the chance to get out the house for one moment, away from little timmy and janice. What this means in contrast is that they don't offer much in the way of work (even though i was promised some) and any overtime is quickly snaffled up. This equates to me not working at all over easter unless i come home. I've toyed with a few ideas (other jobs coming home for a little bit) but i think the best idea is to quit before i get too involved in the whole thing. I hate taking my word back but i think this time its best to be selfish.
In the long run this means i should be coming home over the easter period i.e Friday time during which i am tempted to try a number of options for work when i return to leicester after easter. Dad says i shouldn't worry about money as something can be done but i think thats not the point - I need to be independant to be me. All i want is to come home and see all you guys. God i'm welling up writing that - i havn't been this homesick in about 6 years.
Anyway i need to go and tidy up my house (i'm all alone there) as its a big shit hole.
Who thought being yourself would be so tough...
I had my first shift at Homebase and to be honest it was ridiculously easy. It is the sort of job that employs specifically people who have no aspiration to do better or relish the chance to get out the house for one moment, away from little timmy and janice. What this means in contrast is that they don't offer much in the way of work (even though i was promised some) and any overtime is quickly snaffled up. This equates to me not working at all over easter unless i come home. I've toyed with a few ideas (other jobs coming home for a little bit) but i think the best idea is to quit before i get too involved in the whole thing. I hate taking my word back but i think this time its best to be selfish.
In the long run this means i should be coming home over the easter period i.e Friday time during which i am tempted to try a number of options for work when i return to leicester after easter. Dad says i shouldn't worry about money as something can be done but i think thats not the point - I need to be independant to be me. All i want is to come home and see all you guys. God i'm welling up writing that - i havn't been this homesick in about 6 years.
Anyway i need to go and tidy up my house (i'm all alone there) as its a big shit hole.
Who thought being yourself would be so tough...