Times are hard.
So, changes are good. But for me it's going to take some determination.
Yesterday, was the first time I felt alive in a long time. The sky turned dark, the wind blew strong and the sky opened and poured. But the rain wasn't any rain. It was inviting rain, rain that said, come join me. Dance with me, splash, sing, jump, run, moo, scream, skip and laugh. I called my friend Nikki and did just that. I ran until my lungs wheezed and my sides ached. I screamed and laughed and felt.. alive.
I miss very few things from my "old" life. College is what I've been waiting for, for years.
Boys are complicated... and right now I'm making them a non-necessity. I'm waiting... for what I know I want. I need to control my wants, my urges and just wait. Wait for you. because you're what i really want. rehearsal is only a short part of life.
I felt happy for the first time in a while. My group of friends and I have this late night "performance spot" in one of the parking garages around campus. The acoustics are phenomenal and we all just sit in our parking spot and sing around a guitar and laugh and enjoy life. As you listen to different people sing, and the lyrics, you realize how much a song can really express the moment. and for me... I'm happy.
Yesterday, was the first time I felt alive in a long time. The sky turned dark, the wind blew strong and the sky opened and poured. But the rain wasn't any rain. It was inviting rain, rain that said, come join me. Dance with me, splash, sing, jump, run, moo, scream, skip and laugh. I called my friend Nikki and did just that. I ran until my lungs wheezed and my sides ached. I screamed and laughed and felt.. alive.
I miss very few things from my "old" life. College is what I've been waiting for, for years.
Boys are complicated... and right now I'm making them a non-necessity. I'm waiting... for what I know I want. I need to control my wants, my urges and just wait. Wait for you. because you're what i really want. rehearsal is only a short part of life.
I felt happy for the first time in a while. My group of friends and I have this late night "performance spot" in one of the parking garages around campus. The acoustics are phenomenal and we all just sit in our parking spot and sing around a guitar and laugh and enjoy life. As you listen to different people sing, and the lyrics, you realize how much a song can really express the moment. and for me... I'm happy.