Proof's in the blood...
...samples, that is. I go in for my tests tomorrow morning (wah, I want to eat!) and I'm not looking forward to the results. I already know they're going to be worse than they should be, but my doctor and I talked about that a bit at my appointment a few weeks ago. I was very honest and told her that, since taking my promotion, my sugars have been everywhere, but mostly high. The stress really gets to me sometimes and there's not much more I can do about that. I play it down to friends and family, because I really can't stand the fussing, but the proof will be in the tests which they all tend to ask about.
My doctors are (again) pushing me to get on the pump. I'd like that, I really would, but the expense is majorly prohibitive, even with my insurance paying for 80% of the pump itself and a decent share of the monthly supplies. Still, if it will ease my life (it's just so difficult sometimes, to worry about all this shit... Gods, you can't even enjoy a cookie at work without having to duck out to give yourself a shot and that just gets so damn old sometimes I can't stand it.) and enable me to keep better control of my body and my sugars, I'm thinking it might be worth the financial strain. And the convienence of it is so attractive to me. Retail isn't a job where you can count on set hours, which makes it that much more difficult to maintain good control, and the pump basically takes most of the stress out of that.
But damn... so expensive... It always comes down to money, doesn't it? =/
My doctors are (again) pushing me to get on the pump. I'd like that, I really would, but the expense is majorly prohibitive, even with my insurance paying for 80% of the pump itself and a decent share of the monthly supplies. Still, if it will ease my life (it's just so difficult sometimes, to worry about all this shit... Gods, you can't even enjoy a cookie at work without having to duck out to give yourself a shot and that just gets so damn old sometimes I can't stand it.) and enable me to keep better control of my body and my sugars, I'm thinking it might be worth the financial strain. And the convienence of it is so attractive to me. Retail isn't a job where you can count on set hours, which makes it that much more difficult to maintain good control, and the pump basically takes most of the stress out of that.
But damn... so expensive... It always comes down to money, doesn't it? =/