the same old pattern

[mansonspoe]

i dont understand why i am so upset over the little things in life. When major things happen to me that should make me upset it doesnt seem to faze me any.. I always seem to get mad at the people i care about the most. I almost seems like I try to push them away before i get to close. Why do i do this to people and why are they still my friend? I am so lucky to have the friends that i have. I wish i was more mellow and not so angry. Even at work i freak out on people for no realy big reason. I am sure they are not to found of me. I dont get wyh i am so angry any ways.. I have a great life. I am eating well. walking, working, and going to school for a great career. I just need to learn to take deep breaths and know that this will pass..

Thank you to every one who is my friend and have seen the awfule sides of me... and thank you emily for living with me and being the best friend that you are.