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I've had a fairly good past couple of days. My good friend Calley came and spent the night and we had fun. We went around rita ranch just because we were bored and stole a flashing construction sign just to play with and it was fun. Boredom is the pits so it gave us something to to. I haven't been doing much. Trying to keep myself occupied. When i'm occupied i don't cry as much. And that helps. My mom brought me 50 first dates and that made me really sad. It made me think a lot. I think i'll be alright, but sometimes, I just don't know. I can't sleep in my bed. It makes me to sad. Just thinking of all the phone conversations I had with Mike while i layed there and a bunch of shit. but i'll be alright with it soon enough. I'm leaving on wednesday. i don't think i've ever been more happy to be getting out. I'm seriously contemplating staying there. I don't know if i can come back here and go to school and do all the things I used to. They just don't feel normal anymore. They don't have that feeling. It just doesn't feel worth it. My perspective on things has changed so much in the past week. Things are differant now. And i don't even know how to explain it, there isn't really a word for it, besides differant... well i guess thats all i'm going to say for now...