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i can't do this.
talking to him on msn makes me want to cry. he just sent me a few pics of him infront of the reichstag, and like, drinking a 1 litre beer and stuff... and just... seeing his face makes me sad. so i said i had to go, and blocked him.
i just want to fuck him off.
and never speak to him again.
because that way it will be easier for me.
i won't have to deal with the bullshit feelings.
great coping mechanism.
i never say this.
ever.
but i wish i could talk about this to someone.
i don't do the whole talking thing.
and right now, there ain't a single person i can do it to.
because my friends are fucked. and are never there when i need them.
only when they need me.
-sigh-
talking to him on msn makes me want to cry. he just sent me a few pics of him infront of the reichstag, and like, drinking a 1 litre beer and stuff... and just... seeing his face makes me sad. so i said i had to go, and blocked him.
i just want to fuck him off.
and never speak to him again.
because that way it will be easier for me.
i won't have to deal with the bullshit feelings.
great coping mechanism.
i never say this.
ever.
but i wish i could talk about this to someone.
i don't do the whole talking thing.
and right now, there ain't a single person i can do it to.
because my friends are fucked. and are never there when i need them.
only when they need me.
-sigh-