my life
i feel that every one i know has a stronger bond with each other than i do. i feel like i am on the outside of an electrical fence and they are inside. i am trying to find a way in but i can't i am stuck on the outside. i see them and every time i leave i imagine them saying how much they detest me. i look at hot guys and i picture them saying how ugly i am. in my future i see me alone in an apt. with 27 cats and no friends. i fell that the people i call my homies and friends just put up with me but don't really like me b/c they are always distant. sometimes i get so low i consider killing myself but i could never do it b/c i want to find some one to love me the way i love them. P.S MY B-DAY IS ON T MINUS 13 DAYS YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!