can i get a fuck you???
and now the much anticipated long awaited entry
c'mon we can all pretend its that serious..
so much bullshit has been going on lately i just sit back and now i got this maniacal laugh going on
so last weekend was alright, i mean i discovered that yet another one of my friends id psyhco, its really sad but anywho some heffa is going after my kenny who is not so innocent as we all thought he was (**jay**)
and i'm still trying to find a good church to go to, i'm just not feeling much of anything anymore, its quite sad
and in between my other roomate and her lil maricon boyfriend pissing me off (i swear i'm going to go hialeah on her flat white ass) i've just been going to class,actually getting work done and keeping my grades up except in my fucking women in lit class, i really need to start studying for them quizzes but w/e meng
wednesday i went to leti's party at chubbys that sucked ass of course no one was dancing and the bia decided to ignore me? oh well it was free so i can't complain then i went and saw my current fling everson at my job, he of course was high and all he could say was "emmm daym, u look purty.." all romantic sweet talk has me head over heels, and whats hilarious is that is red skinned boy dwayen took a liking to jay, aw what a shame hes 27 and has four kids and my roomie is just not into babysitting right now (tsk tsk)
thursday i went to the fair, and my lovely roomate won us a fishy, hes a psycho goldfish named pez (original no?) who gets spastic every once in awhile but i love him anyways even tho hes an ungrateful motha fucka
and then of course theres the weekend,i'm just gonna make a lil list, theres no point in trying to add emotion or my reaction to shit anymore because i'm not really here, shit happens and somehow i'm moving on without a second thought, not even a fucking pause or a glance behind me
1) my grandmother fell shortly after i had talked to her on monday evening, all week i had the feeling that i should call her b/c i wasn't very enthusiastic over the phone, but i got caught up in my shit
2) so it turns out she remained passed out on her kitchen floor for 3 days
3) she was admitted into the hospital thurday afternoon
4) shes got some urinary problem, dimensia and one of her lungs is completely filled with fluids while the other is about 1/3 full ( ironically i've taken up smoking again )
5) in conclusion, shes dying
6) as a result my dad is going over his lil cliff
7) he broke three ribs on that fucking motorcyle trip that i knew he shouldn't go on
8) and now hes all calling me 24/7 since i'm the only one who gets him, acting all nice and shit like a motha fucking teddy bear
9) hes on xanex and some kinda narcotic simaler to morhphine for the pain
10) my brother is getting beat up on in that fucking school and as a result hes now beceome aggressive and violent at home, last night he raised a fist to candace, then to my dad and got the shit beaten out of him
11) and i won't go into the shit going on with the rest of my family but now everyone is on the happiness pills and i'm wondering if maybe i should be too, maybe then i'll feel
b/c i don't give fuck about anything
i don't cry
i didn't feel anything in the service on sunday, and my music didn't move me anymore,
i'm growing apart from everything and i know its hurting ppl like rach, but i don't know what to do, i don't wanna hear my shit anymore but i really don't wanna hear anyone elses,and its not that i don't care, i just can't anymore
i wanna laugh and eat shit,act a fool and just live and be happy, so this weekend i am going out and i don't give a fuck where who takes me, i'm getting high and getting drunk and be all 18 and shit
and i'm dyeing my hair again and eating lots of ice-cream this week
i'm not here right now but if you leave me a message i'll get back to you as soon as possible
c'mon we can all pretend its that serious..
so much bullshit has been going on lately i just sit back and now i got this maniacal laugh going on
so last weekend was alright, i mean i discovered that yet another one of my friends id psyhco, its really sad but anywho some heffa is going after my kenny who is not so innocent as we all thought he was (**jay**)
and i'm still trying to find a good church to go to, i'm just not feeling much of anything anymore, its quite sad
and in between my other roomate and her lil maricon boyfriend pissing me off (i swear i'm going to go hialeah on her flat white ass) i've just been going to class,actually getting work done and keeping my grades up except in my fucking women in lit class, i really need to start studying for them quizzes but w/e meng
wednesday i went to leti's party at chubbys that sucked ass of course no one was dancing and the bia decided to ignore me? oh well it was free so i can't complain then i went and saw my current fling everson at my job, he of course was high and all he could say was "emmm daym, u look purty.." all romantic sweet talk has me head over heels, and whats hilarious is that is red skinned boy dwayen took a liking to jay, aw what a shame hes 27 and has four kids and my roomie is just not into babysitting right now (tsk tsk)
thursday i went to the fair, and my lovely roomate won us a fishy, hes a psycho goldfish named pez (original no?) who gets spastic every once in awhile but i love him anyways even tho hes an ungrateful motha fucka
and then of course theres the weekend,i'm just gonna make a lil list, theres no point in trying to add emotion or my reaction to shit anymore because i'm not really here, shit happens and somehow i'm moving on without a second thought, not even a fucking pause or a glance behind me
1) my grandmother fell shortly after i had talked to her on monday evening, all week i had the feeling that i should call her b/c i wasn't very enthusiastic over the phone, but i got caught up in my shit
2) so it turns out she remained passed out on her kitchen floor for 3 days
3) she was admitted into the hospital thurday afternoon
4) shes got some urinary problem, dimensia and one of her lungs is completely filled with fluids while the other is about 1/3 full ( ironically i've taken up smoking again )
5) in conclusion, shes dying
6) as a result my dad is going over his lil cliff
7) he broke three ribs on that fucking motorcyle trip that i knew he shouldn't go on
8) and now hes all calling me 24/7 since i'm the only one who gets him, acting all nice and shit like a motha fucking teddy bear
9) hes on xanex and some kinda narcotic simaler to morhphine for the pain
10) my brother is getting beat up on in that fucking school and as a result hes now beceome aggressive and violent at home, last night he raised a fist to candace, then to my dad and got the shit beaten out of him
11) and i won't go into the shit going on with the rest of my family but now everyone is on the happiness pills and i'm wondering if maybe i should be too, maybe then i'll feel
b/c i don't give fuck about anything
i don't cry
i didn't feel anything in the service on sunday, and my music didn't move me anymore,
i'm growing apart from everything and i know its hurting ppl like rach, but i don't know what to do, i don't wanna hear my shit anymore but i really don't wanna hear anyone elses,and its not that i don't care, i just can't anymore
i wanna laugh and eat shit,act a fool and just live and be happy, so this weekend i am going out and i don't give a fuck where who takes me, i'm getting high and getting drunk and be all 18 and shit
and i'm dyeing my hair again and eating lots of ice-cream this week
i'm not here right now but if you leave me a message i'll get back to you as soon as possible