just some thoughts
whats really sad is that there are still some people who are living in the high school era of our lives. I mean you would think that people would gain some maturity this summer and get rid of these petty differences. I mean we're going to college and to continue to go on about insignificant high school shit to make yourself look good,its all very
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No I really don't talk shit. When we stopped talking I actually felt quite peaceful about it. I thought we left on ok terms. I mean we had an adult conversation and I just thought 'Ok , and end to an era". It was ok , and I will swear to God(no I'm not a drugslut atheist whore that I have been portrayed to be) I have never talked any trash about you. In fact when people asked me about you I tell them we arent friends but I still love you . You cant wipe out a person who has been a part of your life for so long and expect not to still care for them. I would take your hand and pull you up if you were falling a cliff, Dinah dear. I dont wish evil things on you and whoever has been telling you that I talked any slander about you had bad intentions.
Guess what ? I cried when we stopped being friends. I dont cry anymore because I like to think I think like an adult. Things change, people change and they grow apart. That is ok with me. I am happy oyou have a future and are going to FSU. I am not going to pretend I dont know you and I would lend you an umbrella during one of their (and you know they have them) drenching downpours.
I ask that you beleive me when I tell you I have never said an unkind word -maybe a frustrated one when you parked on my grass lol- about you. I just read your journal now. I dont appreciate the unkind things, but you know what if that is how you feel , that is how you feel. There is nothing in the world I can do to change that. I live my life, and I love people worth loving. I know I'm not trash. I know I am not physco. And as much as it would make you feel good, I dont really think about you all that much. We have great memories, its beautiful, and I was glad to have you as a friend, but no I dont bother myself with pissing you (or your friends off). I know you've heard things about me that aren't flattering. Because I respect you and the friendship we had, I can tell you that most aren't true. Yup , I tried pot, twice. With people I trust and respect. Nope, I definitly dont do it on a regular basis. It smells like shit. No , I don't sleep around. I am a horny motherfucker-nothing has changed- but sex is still something very big for me.
I just want you to know you've been misinformed. I have tried staying out of your life. All you can trust is my word. That is all I have to give you.
Like I said, I had thought we had parted on if not amicable, peaceful terms. I hope this is resolved, because this is about 5 months worth of thought built up.
Talk shit in your journal, I really dont mind. I had never read it until tonite. Its your journal babe, do what you feel. But you know I am not trash , and you know I am not the person you are making me out to be. So now it's on your conscience to keep saying it.
I did this nicely, because I respect you that much. Please dont turn this into a post war.
Goodbye
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