Oct 02, 2004 21:42
I think I'm at the crossroad in my
life where I need to get my whole act together. You know, work on my
material. So a guy walks into a bar and slips on an ice cube. He went
to the hospital and realized why he was there in the first place. So he
says to the doctor "Im not hurt or in pain, I was just giving you guys
the slip." You see what I mean. My whole comedy act has gone down the
drain since I realized how few people I'm actually gonna be in contact
with for the rest of my life. Listen, I realize that I'm not the
funniest, smartest, loudest, sexiest or even the most perfect guy out
there. I guess if there was anything I was the best in, it would be I'm
the best at being my best. I will always try and put on the best show I
can put on even if I don't feel up to it. I realized that I think I've
outgrown some of my friends and that's ok. I felt bad at first which is
probably why I've been so down and sort of depressed in a way. But I
think that I'm supposed to be that way. I wasn't ment to stay here
forever. I wasn't meant to live forever. I wasn't meant to be 16
forever. I think I grew up a long time ago and now it's time that I
caught up with myself. I wish there was some other way to do it but
there isn't. So, with that in mind, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do next
but I think I have to expand my horizons a little. I'm sorry but I
can't stop growing. It's time I got my act together.