differentiate!!!!!!!!!!

[manoftheyear]

so things are good, and i am well.

since the unpleasantness of early febuary my entire mindset has just been sleepy.

ive just wanted to run away from everything.

from friends from family, from work, from school.

but i realized how childish all that is.

i dont want to run anymore.

i want to be happy. really happy not just fake happy like i was earlier this year.

i want to be calm. my head feels so sleepy right now. but my body has soo much tension in it i feel like im going to explode.

i have two older sisters. i love them, but we were never close. i never had any brothers.
but my friends justin and nate have been with me ever since i can remember. so i guess i can call them my brothers, and it feels like they really are, im insanely grateful for the both of them.

i still feel rather lonely. my friends are there and that is great, but i still want more. i would like a girlfriend.

it seems though that im too simple. that my complications are trivial and my hallmarks outshine no one else.

but as i said things are good and i am well.

i am hopeful it i think its growing.