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my life is going to be over soon and i know it because im in love with him and i cant do this.
its not my fault at all but at the same thing it is, i wanted things to be right and i wanted to make sure i was doing everything right.
i want this so bad.
just talking, knowing what he thinks. i feel like i lost him already. i want to die.
im not going to live a lie though. i love him more than anything in the world and i am never going to lie to him or do anything to him.
i regret this more than anything and feel like im already dead.
how am i so stupid?
i broke my own fucking heart.
its not my fault at all but at the same thing it is, i wanted things to be right and i wanted to make sure i was doing everything right.
i want this so bad.
just talking, knowing what he thinks. i feel like i lost him already. i want to die.
im not going to live a lie though. i love him more than anything in the world and i am never going to lie to him or do anything to him.
i regret this more than anything and feel like im already dead.
how am i so stupid?
i broke my own fucking heart.