The darker side....
Maybe it's the weather? I can't quite figure it out. Something is awry. (Is that the correct spelling?) I had trouble sleeping last night- a firetruck and an ambulance went by in the middle of the night, and for some reason, I woke up thinking that it was one of my students who lives in Salem that was in trouble. It took me about 30 minutes to fully wake up and realize that it wasn't the way it seemed, but I couldn't go back to sleep well after- it was very fitful.
Today, I woke up with a hurting heart. What is it? There is nothing in life to be upset about, I just feel sad. A friend suggested that maybe it is seasonal depression several weeks ago- I certainly believe it is a real condition. After being so beautiful yesterday, it is cold and gray and icky today. It seems a likely possiblity that my mood is just connected to the weather today. It is just one of those feelings where I want a good friend to give me a big hug, let me cry- even if over nothing!- for a bit, and stroke my hair and back. To be comforted. Hahahha, it's not one of those things you ask for. Maybe I didn't have enough hugs yesterday- Barb Schur, one of those amazing people from my time at Gordon, and I had this project to give at least 7 hugs a day. I assume that week was one of the happiest of my life.
Maybe it is with my students- so many are moving away. Two of my favorite families of students- one has 2 students, the other has 3 students- they are all moving away in April. Ugh. What am I doing to do? And it seems that I overstepped my boundaries a bit- two of my students have American guardians, and I don't need to do quite as much. I'll call that parent tonight and try to smooth it over. And one of the teachers yesterday upset one of the students- students need to obey, but there is no need for yelling and screaming, I"m sort of dreading that conversation this afternoon. I also just feel so many details that I am letting slip by- it's not great for the self esteem.
I love the Gulu Gulu Cafe. Great food, good atmosphere, soft, calming music.
Today, I woke up with a hurting heart. What is it? There is nothing in life to be upset about, I just feel sad. A friend suggested that maybe it is seasonal depression several weeks ago- I certainly believe it is a real condition. After being so beautiful yesterday, it is cold and gray and icky today. It seems a likely possiblity that my mood is just connected to the weather today. It is just one of those feelings where I want a good friend to give me a big hug, let me cry- even if over nothing!- for a bit, and stroke my hair and back. To be comforted. Hahahha, it's not one of those things you ask for. Maybe I didn't have enough hugs yesterday- Barb Schur, one of those amazing people from my time at Gordon, and I had this project to give at least 7 hugs a day. I assume that week was one of the happiest of my life.
Maybe it is with my students- so many are moving away. Two of my favorite families of students- one has 2 students, the other has 3 students- they are all moving away in April. Ugh. What am I doing to do? And it seems that I overstepped my boundaries a bit- two of my students have American guardians, and I don't need to do quite as much. I'll call that parent tonight and try to smooth it over. And one of the teachers yesterday upset one of the students- students need to obey, but there is no need for yelling and screaming, I"m sort of dreading that conversation this afternoon. I also just feel so many details that I am letting slip by- it's not great for the self esteem.
I love the Gulu Gulu Cafe. Great food, good atmosphere, soft, calming music.