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march 20
alaska airlines
4:00pm
$247
LAX to Vancouver
i hope canada is ready for me and alex to fuck it up.
and we will, i promise.
seriously something is terribly wrong with me. lately i have had the highest immunity to sadness/loneliness and i cant figure out why. i dont have shit going for me, but i dont give a fuck anymore. its impossible. ive never felt so good about not feeling. like sure there are days when i wish i wasnt alone. but i really dont care. like it passes really quick. and that rules. its like there is so much weight off my chest and i can breath easier knowing that im just living for livings sake. not to please any fucking person but myself. and i do it well. and i dont care how selfish it sounds. i dont care when i can actually smile, or actually laugh and really mean it. not having some sort of drag of a thought jumping around in my head. i let go of sadness, and i have the strongest grip on life that ive ever had. and i owe it all to the beautiful things in the world. the good stuff that outdoes the bad
shit. valentines day was just another day. every day is just another day. the point of life is to learn when to settle. when to cut your loses and move the fuck on. and im at that point. and ill be fucked if that ends anytime soon.
thats all for now,
manny
p.s. love actually is a cool movie. even though i gave up on newer movies, it is pretty good.
p.s.s. fuck virginity
alaska airlines
4:00pm
$247
LAX to Vancouver
i hope canada is ready for me and alex to fuck it up.
and we will, i promise.
seriously something is terribly wrong with me. lately i have had the highest immunity to sadness/loneliness and i cant figure out why. i dont have shit going for me, but i dont give a fuck anymore. its impossible. ive never felt so good about not feeling. like sure there are days when i wish i wasnt alone. but i really dont care. like it passes really quick. and that rules. its like there is so much weight off my chest and i can breath easier knowing that im just living for livings sake. not to please any fucking person but myself. and i do it well. and i dont care how selfish it sounds. i dont care when i can actually smile, or actually laugh and really mean it. not having some sort of drag of a thought jumping around in my head. i let go of sadness, and i have the strongest grip on life that ive ever had. and i owe it all to the beautiful things in the world. the good stuff that outdoes the bad
shit. valentines day was just another day. every day is just another day. the point of life is to learn when to settle. when to cut your loses and move the fuck on. and im at that point. and ill be fucked if that ends anytime soon.
thats all for now,
manny
p.s. love actually is a cool movie. even though i gave up on newer movies, it is pretty good.
p.s.s. fuck virginity