update.
i am dreadfully in love with nicole.
and i know i've said this before.
but i am making my final stand at getting back together with her in some way shape or form.
christmas eve.
zombie santa is gonna be scratching at your door.
with jewelry, clothes, wine, poems, maybe a mixtape, and a heart full of love.
many of you think i should give up, and maybe you're right. but maybe i tried and it's easier for me to live wishing i could have her and not, but enjoying every moment that i feel that spark could be catching flame.
i'd rather have that then blank stares and cold shoulders.
basically. this sums it up.
i wrote it this morning at work.
i feel like im always swallowing blood
for everytime that i bite my tongue
choking on the words that are caught in my lungs
sighing after each word i've sung
sometimes i wish that i could just breathe
or even that you might simply see
i make such attempts even if only to fail
like a ship lost at sea who had the nerve to set sail
even after the cartographer told him of no map and warned
the forecast predicted inevitable possibilities of a storm
maybe the only thing that i have left
is a sunken treasure swelling in my chest
till you open it up one day i swear
and replace that pendant on the necklace you wear
to shine upon your breast for all the world to see
will be the heart of a lover that can never be.
i sent it to most of you right after, so you've already seen it.
it's the same emotions and things i've been saying all along. i'm sure you're all bored of it. but i don't give a fuck.
i am dealing with it too. i hear it more than you in MY head. i eat sleep and breathe it.
i LIVE it.
sometimes i feel like this emptiness is all i have.
when i'm alone.
it consumes me.
in other news.
i haven't had access to this lately. so i've been missing out on all of your lives, because none of us call or see each other.
which BLOWS.
jess and gill, i am sorry for your loss of your pets. i lost both my dogs in one year. and it's hard. i love you dearly <3
shay you better call me when you are in town so we can hang out and i can make you laugh.
gina dont let school get you down, stick it out, keep up with your work, and try not to wait till 2 am to do a paper!
kellie text me...its been like a month siince i heard from you
erin move back to ny. you know you loved thanksgiving break more than VA.
lauren, hook me up with an ill framed pic of me from the photoshoot. use your best judgement, pick the one that portrays me the best but also has the best ACTUAL image of me.
jon. i talk to you almost everyday. i'm mukked for life.
anyone else...
call or text me.
oh. and i have a potential band practice saturday. its gonna r00l so hard. people will fear us.
and i know i've said this before.
but i am making my final stand at getting back together with her in some way shape or form.
christmas eve.
zombie santa is gonna be scratching at your door.
with jewelry, clothes, wine, poems, maybe a mixtape, and a heart full of love.
many of you think i should give up, and maybe you're right. but maybe i tried and it's easier for me to live wishing i could have her and not, but enjoying every moment that i feel that spark could be catching flame.
i'd rather have that then blank stares and cold shoulders.
basically. this sums it up.
i wrote it this morning at work.
i feel like im always swallowing blood
for everytime that i bite my tongue
choking on the words that are caught in my lungs
sighing after each word i've sung
sometimes i wish that i could just breathe
or even that you might simply see
i make such attempts even if only to fail
like a ship lost at sea who had the nerve to set sail
even after the cartographer told him of no map and warned
the forecast predicted inevitable possibilities of a storm
maybe the only thing that i have left
is a sunken treasure swelling in my chest
till you open it up one day i swear
and replace that pendant on the necklace you wear
to shine upon your breast for all the world to see
will be the heart of a lover that can never be.
i sent it to most of you right after, so you've already seen it.
it's the same emotions and things i've been saying all along. i'm sure you're all bored of it. but i don't give a fuck.
i am dealing with it too. i hear it more than you in MY head. i eat sleep and breathe it.
i LIVE it.
sometimes i feel like this emptiness is all i have.
when i'm alone.
it consumes me.
in other news.
i haven't had access to this lately. so i've been missing out on all of your lives, because none of us call or see each other.
which BLOWS.
jess and gill, i am sorry for your loss of your pets. i lost both my dogs in one year. and it's hard. i love you dearly <3
shay you better call me when you are in town so we can hang out and i can make you laugh.
gina dont let school get you down, stick it out, keep up with your work, and try not to wait till 2 am to do a paper!
kellie text me...its been like a month siince i heard from you
erin move back to ny. you know you loved thanksgiving break more than VA.
lauren, hook me up with an ill framed pic of me from the photoshoot. use your best judgement, pick the one that portrays me the best but also has the best ACTUAL image of me.
jon. i talk to you almost everyday. i'm mukked for life.
anyone else...
call or text me.
oh. and i have a potential band practice saturday. its gonna r00l so hard. people will fear us.