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I met her three years ago on my very first day at work. I was scared out of my mind and couldn't understand a word she said. She had a strong German accent and I had no idea what she was talking about. Over the last three years Sabine and I have become good friends. I learned so much from her. Including how to understand what she was talking about. She taught me everything she could about horses. I learned more from her than I have ever learned from a teacher at school. I admit I never envied the life she had but I was glad to have her as my friend. At first she didn't trust me and I can understand why, I had no idea what I was doing. But over the years she has given me more and more responsibility and I loved it. Everything has changed since I met her, she has given me more reason to ride, more reason to work. Things have been great lately. We've had so much fun. She's been so happy. I feel like I can talk to her about anything, tell her anything and she'll give me good advice. But last weekend I learned something that changed everything. I wasn't told but I'm not deaf or blind. I knew what was going on. Sherri kept telling me things and it all added up. Sherri was going to fire her. I tried not to think about it and tried to convince myself that I was wrong. Sherri wasn't that stupid. Well I guess she is because yesterday when I came into work Sherri told me that she was gone. I wanted to cry. What surprised me the most was when I found out that the reason she was going to leave at the end of the summer anyway was that she was pregnant. I couldn't believe it and I'm still having a hard time believing it. She is just not the kind of person that you would expect to have a kid. But she is and she was going to leave by the end of the summer. But she started "slacking off" and so sherri fired her. I really wish she hadn't fired her. I don't know what Sarah and I are going to do without her. I don't know what Sherri is going to do without her. And another thing. How could I have not noticed that Sabine was pregnant?!?! I mean hello, I notice these things!!! But I didn't notice this time and that's weird.
I learned so much from Sabine and now she's gone. It seems like everyone is leaving. Megan is going to leave for school and Lori is getting married. Eventually she will want to have kids and won't be able to teach us. Sherri is going away for the first three weeks of summer and Helen is having problems of her own and says she's going to leave. I know that eventually I will have to make a choice. There are so many things that keep driving me away but even more that are pulling me back. I don't know what to do because there is no way that I will get the respect that I have somewhere else. Then there are the horses. I don't think I could leave the horses that I love like Oreo and Curtis and now Joey. The people, the horses and the respect. That is what is holding me here. What if that's not enough?
I learned so much from Sabine and now she's gone. It seems like everyone is leaving. Megan is going to leave for school and Lori is getting married. Eventually she will want to have kids and won't be able to teach us. Sherri is going away for the first three weeks of summer and Helen is having problems of her own and says she's going to leave. I know that eventually I will have to make a choice. There are so many things that keep driving me away but even more that are pulling me back. I don't know what to do because there is no way that I will get the respect that I have somewhere else. Then there are the horses. I don't think I could leave the horses that I love like Oreo and Curtis and now Joey. The people, the horses and the respect. That is what is holding me here. What if that's not enough?