I'm not trying to be offensive/mean, not even angry, I'm just sad; I have always thought the best way to meet people is through mutual friends. I don't see you as someone who is mean/cruel/etc, so therefore I don't see you as someone who would have friends who are. Friends are also someone who you usually have something in common with. Therefore, by the above logic, your friends would be people with some (not ALL) common interests and morals too me. They would also be good poeople. That was the basis for my saying hello to them, I have done the same to several other people on lj, just this time it was people you know. I love introducing my friends, it was wicked how you clicked with Graham, TJ and them the day we went swordfighting, and how you got along with my sister Sandra and Angie at the Ex. So once again, sorry for hurting you. It hurts me too, though I have to remember that stupid phrase you told me to remember about not thinking people are always out to hurt you with their words. Because otherwise, I'd be forced to think that you've never thought me worthy of meeting your friends, that I was, and always will be, sub-par to them for some reason. And that is what hurts the most.
See if you keep hurting me and our friendship is rocky why would I introduce you to other people? I would wait for you to learn to stop hurting me first, for you to earn trust and in time perhaps get to know someone I know. But if you are having difficulties with me then this is just a circle of what happened this summer and my friends are still hurt by it. I don't want that to happen again. -Mannlich
I'm sorry by talking to them I hurt you again. I don't want to hurt you, I hope you know that, and I never said anything about you to them, out of respect for that. I guess I reached too far again - saturday I thought everything was all good again. And I don't want that circle of pain to happen again either. We have to tell each other when things bother us though, a vague email doesn't tell me what I did to upset you. The words 'Please don't talk to my friends does.'. That's why the summer didn't work, there were too many things we stopped telling each other. Hope we are still friends, because that's what you said you wanted to be, :`(
Do you not understand what you did to Exrock and Cher? Thats not going to happen again. And as I told you before you have lots of cleaning up to do with some people. -Mannlich
Blackened wrists bound with leather chainslookintomyeyesJanuary 13 2004, 17:03:00 UTC
Okay, so i won't talk to them then. Part of it is that I told Cher something I shouldn't have, and she resented it. I won't make that mistake again, believe me. Exrock, well, i just believed the friendship was more than it was. I wont make that mistake again either. But I'll respect your decision, though it hurts me sometimes. If I seems that if I hvae to sacrifice everything, I will. Here's a hug if you want it, *hug*
Re: Blackened wrists bound with leather chainsmannlichJanuary 13 2004, 19:01:12 UTC
You can talk to whomever you want. I just don't appreciate not having any space, and whatever I do or whomever I talk to an area that you find appeasing just because they're supposed to be a reflection of me. Work on what you have or had first. If you don't your just going to loose it again. And some people you can never get back. -Mannlich
Re: Blackened wrists bound with leather chainslookintomyeyesJanuary 13 2004, 19:05:46 UTC
It seems like your online right now, but if you are, you've blocked me. I'll try to explain it more to you next time were both online, it comes down to one simple thing that i don't feel like explaining here. And i came across a comment made by you the other day in a community, and i didnt post about THAT. But i do randomly come across the same things as you, we DO have alot in common, if you'll remember. As for people I have, most of them mean nothing to me, or I mean nothing to them, and I'm tired of all of their games. I don't need acquantances, I want true friends.
Re: Blackened wrists bound with leather chainsmannlichJanuary 13 2004, 23:16:35 UTC
True friends are hard to come by. Trust me I know. And not very many people are compatible as friends with me either, I'm usually too insane to handle, and too loyal and get screwed over by it easily.
I know you are beginning to branch out your interests as you become more independent. But as I told you before your going to have to put up with my caution until you get my trust back. -Mannlich
I'm not trying to be offensive/mean, not even angry, I'm just sad; I have always thought the best way to meet people is through mutual friends. I don't see you as someone who is mean/cruel/etc, so therefore I don't see you as someone who would have friends who are. Friends are also someone who you usually have something in common with. Therefore, by the above logic, your friends would be people with some (not ALL) common interests and morals too me. They would also be good poeople. That was the basis for my saying hello to them, I have done the same to several other people on lj, just this time it was people you know. I love introducing my friends, it was wicked how you clicked with Graham, TJ and them the day we went swordfighting, and how you got along with my sister Sandra and Angie at the Ex.
So once again, sorry for hurting you. It hurts me too, though I have to remember that stupid phrase you told me to remember about not thinking people are always out to hurt you with their words. Because otherwise, I'd be forced to think that you've never thought me worthy of meeting your friends, that I was, and always will be, sub-par to them for some reason. And that is what hurts the most.
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I guess I reached too far again - saturday I thought everything was all good again.
And I don't want that circle of pain to happen again either.
We have to tell each other when things bother us though, a vague email doesn't tell me what I did to upset you. The words 'Please don't talk to my friends does.'. That's why the summer didn't work, there were too many things we stopped telling each other.
Hope we are still friends, because that's what you said you wanted to be,
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Part of it is that I told Cher something I shouldn't have, and she resented it. I won't make that mistake again, believe me.
Exrock, well, i just believed the friendship was more than it was. I wont make that mistake again either.
But I'll respect your decision, though it hurts me sometimes. If I seems that if I hvae to sacrifice everything, I will.
Here's a hug if you want it,
*hug*
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I'll try to explain it more to you next time were both online, it comes down to one simple thing that i don't feel like explaining here.
And i came across a comment made by you the other day in a community, and i didnt post about THAT. But i do randomly come across the same things as you, we DO have alot in common, if you'll remember.
As for people I have, most of them mean nothing to me, or I mean nothing to them, and I'm tired of all of their games. I don't need acquantances, I want true friends.
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I know you are beginning to branch out your interests as you become more independent. But as I told you before your going to have to put up with my caution until you get my trust back. -Mannlich
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