..crying out my eyelids 'cause it's hard to be a man when you're scared just like a little kid
195 comments? INSANITY! you people must really love me. but trust me, it's mutual.
so things have been crazy lately and i have no idea how this entry will end.
monday ashley came over. we were just hanging out, drinking tea, good innocent fun like that. and then we kissed and i'm a freaking moronmoronmoron and i hate it. and just some things happen that i shouldn't have allowed to happen, and some consequences have come and will come of that.
yesterday i picked ellie up from windsor. that was a lovely time, also. only not. talk about awkward and quiet and mewantingtotearmyhairoutforavarietyofreasons. and then ellie came back home with me and i'm letting her stay at my house.
and today i walked around the park and saw jaytee! we had a picnic at his house and it was fabulous. only not freaking again. i miss my old jaytee. a lot. i'm trying to act like things are normal maybe in the hopes that he'll miss his old life and snap out of everything he's gotten into and in not wanting to accept that things are different, because changes absolutely suck. i'm not going to give up on my dimestack. and then i saw ashley and we talked about some things.. some not so hot things.
and ehhhh, talk about sketchy. oh well. and ps, i love manny, because this entry needs some love and she's making me put this in there.
so things have been crazy lately and i have no idea how this entry will end.
monday ashley came over. we were just hanging out, drinking tea, good innocent fun like that. and then we kissed and i'm a freaking moronmoronmoron and i hate it. and just some things happen that i shouldn't have allowed to happen, and some consequences have come and will come of that.
yesterday i picked ellie up from windsor. that was a lovely time, also. only not. talk about awkward and quiet and mewantingtotearmyhairoutforavarietyofreasons. and then ellie came back home with me and i'm letting her stay at my house.
and today i walked around the park and saw jaytee! we had a picnic at his house and it was fabulous. only not freaking again. i miss my old jaytee. a lot. i'm trying to act like things are normal maybe in the hopes that he'll miss his old life and snap out of everything he's gotten into and in not wanting to accept that things are different, because changes absolutely suck. i'm not going to give up on my dimestack. and then i saw ashley and we talked about some things.. some not so hot things.
and ehhhh, talk about sketchy. oh well. and ps, i love manny, because this entry needs some love and she's making me put this in there.