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since everyone has moved to myspace i'm not worried about posting here. I wept at work today after (and partially during) a certain phone call. I sucked most of it up though and buried it. I knew this was coming for a long time, but it doesn't make it much easier. I'm not sure why this is affecting me so much. My aunt dies and I don't bat an eye. I felt a little bad about her passing but no tears, no nothing. I find out from this phone call that this certain someone might not make it through and I break down in tears while at work.. (I never bring my life issues into work. Never.) I mean I worry about her.. and wonder how she is doing at least four or five times a week.. but she has plenty of friends. a whole sorority even.. who looks out for her. I thought I would be a nuisance of sorts. Hmm.. then I thought about it and realized how stupid that was. If we are friends I should keep tabs, and be a nuisance. Remind her that I care.. not volunteerily back off and let go. I tried to switch shifts with people so I could go earlier than wednesday but it's a no go. Now all I can really do is wait. Get through working these two days and give her the support I can.
good night~
good night~