Tirrreeeed
mrrg... long day.. but good. Party hopped a lot. I missed one, but that's okay. Jason L. (yes your Jason Jess...) called like..as I was on the way to Dans'. I thought I would be heading back to crofton before traffic got bad. However everytime I went to leave I found I didn't want to. I honestly wanted to stay... I don't know why.. One of those if I left I wasn't sure I would ever see them agian kind of things. Life has been like that lately I have become paranoid of losing things, or second guessing peoples' intentions. It will pass. It has the other three times this happened.
Today I realized I don't want to go to salsbury. I don't want to leave the safty and security I have, but if I am to grow I really need to go. Just.. get out and away.. somewhere I have no attachments. Someplace where I wont be followed by memorys; good, or bad. I see it as an extended vacation... except not one I am looking forward to. :-/ I have no intention of ditching my friends and family, but I can not worry about losing them every other day. Sheesh.
I haven't seen carl in forever and a day.. I think I will go stop by ABC and see when he is working next. :ponders:
The last bit of today I spent at Jons' up in baltimore. It was pretty cool. We chatted about relationships, and people before Mini Manda showed up. We tried to strike up the conversations again, but it seemed awkward somehow. :-( That's okay we popped in "March of the Penguins" and it was all good! We all thought it was an excellent movie. Even Jon was oohing and awwwing over the cute little penguin chicks. :-D
Came home and checked some stuff with Dan. (don't you hate it when you hear something that could be taken two different ways and you don't know which it is? I am paranoid and thought waaaaay too much about it. Chatted with Dan and he ebbed my fears..so tis all good.) Thanks agian for the invite!
Haven't Heard from little Erin in a while... I hope the holiday season was kind to her... hmm.. I supose I will be going. Things are looking up. \(^.^)/
Today I realized I don't want to go to salsbury. I don't want to leave the safty and security I have, but if I am to grow I really need to go. Just.. get out and away.. somewhere I have no attachments. Someplace where I wont be followed by memorys; good, or bad. I see it as an extended vacation... except not one I am looking forward to. :-/ I have no intention of ditching my friends and family, but I can not worry about losing them every other day. Sheesh.
I haven't seen carl in forever and a day.. I think I will go stop by ABC and see when he is working next. :ponders:
The last bit of today I spent at Jons' up in baltimore. It was pretty cool. We chatted about relationships, and people before Mini Manda showed up. We tried to strike up the conversations again, but it seemed awkward somehow. :-( That's okay we popped in "March of the Penguins" and it was all good! We all thought it was an excellent movie. Even Jon was oohing and awwwing over the cute little penguin chicks. :-D
Came home and checked some stuff with Dan. (don't you hate it when you hear something that could be taken two different ways and you don't know which it is? I am paranoid and thought waaaaay too much about it. Chatted with Dan and he ebbed my fears..so tis all good.) Thanks agian for the invite!
Haven't Heard from little Erin in a while... I hope the holiday season was kind to her... hmm.. I supose I will be going. Things are looking up. \(^.^)/