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Another lie. They don't stop.
Another confirmation. They keep coming.
I try to trust. My instinct says don't.
I try to wait. My instinct says run.
I try to fight. My instinct says there's no point.
I'm wasting energy.
If I felt...something. Something other than frustration, anger, and annoyance.
If I felt empathy instead of apathy.
Things could be different.
The change needs to come from within me.
Thirteen years ago I was stone cold. Impenetrable. I need that back.
I opened my heart. I know better now.
I've had stars in my eyes for too long. I couldn't see the truth.
No more. I rub my eyes to clear them.
I read the journal over and over again. Each time gets easier.
Protect myself. Trust my intuition.
No more emotional investment. It's not reciprocated, so what's the point.
I'm just a fool.
Another confirmation. They keep coming.
I try to trust. My instinct says don't.
I try to wait. My instinct says run.
I try to fight. My instinct says there's no point.
I'm wasting energy.
If I felt...something. Something other than frustration, anger, and annoyance.
If I felt empathy instead of apathy.
Things could be different.
The change needs to come from within me.
Thirteen years ago I was stone cold. Impenetrable. I need that back.
I opened my heart. I know better now.
I've had stars in my eyes for too long. I couldn't see the truth.
No more. I rub my eyes to clear them.
I read the journal over and over again. Each time gets easier.
Protect myself. Trust my intuition.
No more emotional investment. It's not reciprocated, so what's the point.
I'm just a fool.