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I feel like I haven't updated this thing in a million years. It's actually only been since the 3rd but that was my last day of calm and it feels like it's been much longer than that.
We decided to stay with my friend Tammy because they have a finished attic that they've allowed us to take over and being in a large house is much better than being in a hotel room. Also, the rent was right (free). LOL! We got lucky with this family because not only did they have a place for us they are also amazingly awesome! Being here has definitely kept me busy though. Tammy has 2 children and I have my 1. Together, we have a 1 1/2 year old, a 2 1/2 year old, and a 3 1/2 year old. So yes...2 women and 3 kids in the house all day every day. It's mayhem! Not that it's a bad thing...it's just time consuming. I don't know how Tammy did it on her own with the 2 kids over this deployment. Sheesh! Tammy and family went out of town for the weekend and it's super quiet in the house right now though. It's kind of weird. Lily's down for a nap and there's no noise...unless you count all the rumbling coming from O's direction right now.
I'm super happy to be staying with them because Tammy has the same type of dedication to fitness and health as I do. She actually got me a month long free pass to her gym and we go every morning (during the week anyway). On Mondays and Wednesdays we do spin. On Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays we run. All days we do some type of strength training. I even convinced her to join the Jillian Michaels website with me. LOL!
Let me talk about spin for a moment. The first day I tried it I had trouble making it through the class. The instructor even told me in the beginning to just make it through. Man was it tough. I kept looking at the clock praying for the time to fly by. I didn't even do the ups and downs and the resistance and I had a hard time with it. My butt was pretty sore from the bike seat as well. Holy wow! However, I know I improve pretty quickly so when we went in on Wednesday I was ready. I didn't do so much with the resistance but I definitely kept up with all the race and climb moves. About 15 minutes into that second class I fell in love. It's amazing. The energy from the instructor, the music, and the other people in the room just makes you push even harder. I yell and scream in that class and I push myself harder than I ever thought I would. I find myself wobbling out of class on my jelly legs yelling back to the instructor telling her "thank you" and how much I love her and how she's a spin goddess! I don't know how she teaches 8 classes a week. Phew! Tammy definitely created a lifelong spinner when she introduced me to this class and I'm already thinking about how I can find spin classes while I'm on the road and moving from place to place.
Now running. When I was in high school I used to run. I loved it whenever we would run for PE. It was my favorite thing and I was always one of the first to finish our route. I was even approached several times by coaches asking me to join track. What kept me from it you ask? The physical. That's right. I was such a modest prude that I wouldn't get a physical done and that is THE ONLY reason I didn't do it. I'm sad about that. But what can you do?? My love for running has never left me. In my heart, I am a runner. I just have to get my body there. Over the years I've taken it back up from time to time but something always stops me. A couple years ago, I got pregnant. Last year, I hurt my shins. This year...nothing is stopping me! I'm building back up slowly. I'm doing a program called "couch to 5k" and I'm taking my time (even when I think I can do more I don't). I don't want any more injuries. This program is 9 weeks and I just finished week 2. I love it. Actually, I've given Tammy a new appreciation and love for the sport of running. She can't wait for our run days most days and has even wanted to skip spin days just to run.
I've also decided that my goals as far as running goes, are too low. My goal was to do a 5k this year. Well, I'm upping the ante. My new goal is to do a half marathon this year. I've decided I'm doing my 5k on March 7th in El Paso. There is also a 5k on February 21st in El Paso that I might hit up as well. In the fall, I want to do a half marathon. I'm also going to try to find a 10k or two sometime between those. I really want to do the El Paso Transmountain Challenge half marathon on October 10th but we will have to see if we can make it down there. It all depends on finances and Otty's school schedule. Although, if he can't leave that weekend I'm honestly thinking about going without him. We'll see.
My weight is still about the same. I'm currently at 148-150. What's really important though is the measurements. I found out this morning I've lost 3 inches from my waist since November. I've also lost an inch from my thighs and half an inch from my hips. The weight doesn't matter to me as much as size. We are going this weekend so I can buy some smaller jeans. My size 10s are now too big. My ultimate goal is a 6 though. I hope I can make it.
In other news. I've only gotten one book done so far this year. I've been busy as I said earlier. That's okay though. I've realized that I shouldn't put unrealistic expectations on my head. I'll read what I can. I got my 50 books in last year and that's good enough. My goal this year is to enjoy every book for what it is as opposed to thinking of it as a number. I'm cool with that. So far, I've read "Believe It, Be It" by Ali Vincent. She was the first female to with The Biggest Loser. I read it for my JM team. It was actually REALLY good and I think I finally figured out why I gain weight every time O comes around.
I grew up believing that no one loved me. Not even my own parents. It's a long story. But either way...I've been waiting these last 10 years for O to leave me. Yes, after all this time I'm still waiting for that other shoe to drop. Well, if I'm fat he's leaving me for that reason right? Not because there's something wrong with me...it's because he didn't want to be with a fat girl. So I need to remember that I'm worth loving. I'm worth happiness. The boy loves me and weight has nothing to do with it (until it screws with my confidence and personality). If I can believe that, I can be happy and I can take care of me. I need to remember that I own my actions and if he doesn't love me for me...that's okay. If he ever leaves me, I'll be okay. I just can't lose me.
Anyway. Back to books. I'm currently working on two books. I'm reading "My Life in France" by Julia Child and "Why We Suck" by Denis Leary (high-larious!!). I also, because of a friend's recommendation, picked up a couple erotica books because I've never read anything in that genre. I picked up the "Best Women's Erotica" (I forget which year, either 2009 or 2010) edited by Violet Blue and "Delta of Venus" by Anais Nin (which I found in the bargain section, awesome!).
I guess that's it for me for now. I'm definitely loving having the hubble home. At least I am this week anyway. ::wink wink:: Although today is kinda iffy. LOL!
We decided to stay with my friend Tammy because they have a finished attic that they've allowed us to take over and being in a large house is much better than being in a hotel room. Also, the rent was right (free). LOL! We got lucky with this family because not only did they have a place for us they are also amazingly awesome! Being here has definitely kept me busy though. Tammy has 2 children and I have my 1. Together, we have a 1 1/2 year old, a 2 1/2 year old, and a 3 1/2 year old. So yes...2 women and 3 kids in the house all day every day. It's mayhem! Not that it's a bad thing...it's just time consuming. I don't know how Tammy did it on her own with the 2 kids over this deployment. Sheesh! Tammy and family went out of town for the weekend and it's super quiet in the house right now though. It's kind of weird. Lily's down for a nap and there's no noise...unless you count all the rumbling coming from O's direction right now.
I'm super happy to be staying with them because Tammy has the same type of dedication to fitness and health as I do. She actually got me a month long free pass to her gym and we go every morning (during the week anyway). On Mondays and Wednesdays we do spin. On Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays we run. All days we do some type of strength training. I even convinced her to join the Jillian Michaels website with me. LOL!
Let me talk about spin for a moment. The first day I tried it I had trouble making it through the class. The instructor even told me in the beginning to just make it through. Man was it tough. I kept looking at the clock praying for the time to fly by. I didn't even do the ups and downs and the resistance and I had a hard time with it. My butt was pretty sore from the bike seat as well. Holy wow! However, I know I improve pretty quickly so when we went in on Wednesday I was ready. I didn't do so much with the resistance but I definitely kept up with all the race and climb moves. About 15 minutes into that second class I fell in love. It's amazing. The energy from the instructor, the music, and the other people in the room just makes you push even harder. I yell and scream in that class and I push myself harder than I ever thought I would. I find myself wobbling out of class on my jelly legs yelling back to the instructor telling her "thank you" and how much I love her and how she's a spin goddess! I don't know how she teaches 8 classes a week. Phew! Tammy definitely created a lifelong spinner when she introduced me to this class and I'm already thinking about how I can find spin classes while I'm on the road and moving from place to place.
Now running. When I was in high school I used to run. I loved it whenever we would run for PE. It was my favorite thing and I was always one of the first to finish our route. I was even approached several times by coaches asking me to join track. What kept me from it you ask? The physical. That's right. I was such a modest prude that I wouldn't get a physical done and that is THE ONLY reason I didn't do it. I'm sad about that. But what can you do?? My love for running has never left me. In my heart, I am a runner. I just have to get my body there. Over the years I've taken it back up from time to time but something always stops me. A couple years ago, I got pregnant. Last year, I hurt my shins. This year...nothing is stopping me! I'm building back up slowly. I'm doing a program called "couch to 5k" and I'm taking my time (even when I think I can do more I don't). I don't want any more injuries. This program is 9 weeks and I just finished week 2. I love it. Actually, I've given Tammy a new appreciation and love for the sport of running. She can't wait for our run days most days and has even wanted to skip spin days just to run.
I've also decided that my goals as far as running goes, are too low. My goal was to do a 5k this year. Well, I'm upping the ante. My new goal is to do a half marathon this year. I've decided I'm doing my 5k on March 7th in El Paso. There is also a 5k on February 21st in El Paso that I might hit up as well. In the fall, I want to do a half marathon. I'm also going to try to find a 10k or two sometime between those. I really want to do the El Paso Transmountain Challenge half marathon on October 10th but we will have to see if we can make it down there. It all depends on finances and Otty's school schedule. Although, if he can't leave that weekend I'm honestly thinking about going without him. We'll see.
My weight is still about the same. I'm currently at 148-150. What's really important though is the measurements. I found out this morning I've lost 3 inches from my waist since November. I've also lost an inch from my thighs and half an inch from my hips. The weight doesn't matter to me as much as size. We are going this weekend so I can buy some smaller jeans. My size 10s are now too big. My ultimate goal is a 6 though. I hope I can make it.
In other news. I've only gotten one book done so far this year. I've been busy as I said earlier. That's okay though. I've realized that I shouldn't put unrealistic expectations on my head. I'll read what I can. I got my 50 books in last year and that's good enough. My goal this year is to enjoy every book for what it is as opposed to thinking of it as a number. I'm cool with that. So far, I've read "Believe It, Be It" by Ali Vincent. She was the first female to with The Biggest Loser. I read it for my JM team. It was actually REALLY good and I think I finally figured out why I gain weight every time O comes around.
I grew up believing that no one loved me. Not even my own parents. It's a long story. But either way...I've been waiting these last 10 years for O to leave me. Yes, after all this time I'm still waiting for that other shoe to drop. Well, if I'm fat he's leaving me for that reason right? Not because there's something wrong with me...it's because he didn't want to be with a fat girl. So I need to remember that I'm worth loving. I'm worth happiness. The boy loves me and weight has nothing to do with it (until it screws with my confidence and personality). If I can believe that, I can be happy and I can take care of me. I need to remember that I own my actions and if he doesn't love me for me...that's okay. If he ever leaves me, I'll be okay. I just can't lose me.
Anyway. Back to books. I'm currently working on two books. I'm reading "My Life in France" by Julia Child and "Why We Suck" by Denis Leary (high-larious!!). I also, because of a friend's recommendation, picked up a couple erotica books because I've never read anything in that genre. I picked up the "Best Women's Erotica" (I forget which year, either 2009 or 2010) edited by Violet Blue and "Delta of Venus" by Anais Nin (which I found in the bargain section, awesome!).
I guess that's it for me for now. I'm definitely loving having the hubble home. At least I am this week anyway. ::wink wink:: Although today is kinda iffy. LOL!