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tonight my back hurts on the left side. earlier, i learned the word "kegal" from a cosmopolitan magazine. baffling discoveries. it is fun to learn but i havn't been learning much of anything i have been needing to learn. i have not scored higher than a 75 on any test i have taken thus far this semest. when it comes to the statistical equations/wordy number nonsensical logic confusion, my first test scored me a 67 and i just took my second one today... i probably would be happy with getting above a 50, thats how i performed, very non chalantly and apathetically, well, i guess i'm pretty sure most humans i know of would not have a clue. the teacher is this crazy comic book reader type of guy from jersey or something with a bald head that he shaves sporadically on the sides to the back. i dunno if he reads comic books or is from jersey, i just know of his scalp and they way he talks and teaches and i'm pretty sure this guy is a total failure as a teacher. the animosity that people have been spitting at him recently has been amusing. i usually just breath in soft/loud patterns and repeat the word "fuck" over and over again, sorta mouthing it, gently. like a swan in a gully. hahah i dont even know where that what from, but it funny to me, but come to think of it, i forgot to get my swan from my old apartmiento. anyways... the class sucks, the people in the class suck. this silly broad who sits in front of me, today though was closing a window, so she proceeded to get on top of a desk on all fours, the [long 3 person]desk, apparently being the only access to this window, and then she closed it, and this is pretty much all up in my face, as i sit there trying to learn how to do statistics before i get tested on it. it was like a good ass, like porno ass, pretty much in my face, like i was taking an ass shot of it or in a good position to do so, and i could have gotten 4 to 7 of them. they may have been good jeans. but seriously, if you have a buttocks like that, just stand up, push the desk maybe a few inches and try closing the window that way, maybe. you should at least be consciencious of the way you angle yourself. i almost seem gay for complaining about seeing a ass in my math class at a ridiculous angle. i guess i felt a lil, damn i totally just saw alot of that ass, i wasn't expecting that, i wonder if anyone saw me looking at that ass! i bet everyone else was looking at that ass. shit, seriously i didnt even want to talk about this ass at all in this piece, especially to this degree. but anyway i am not scoring the good grades, and i am just a suffering everyday comfortable/uncomfortable mess. oh yeah i was also meant to talk about smoking pot with long hair, i was smoking a bowl and my hair was in my eyes and i sparked it... but reacted quick and accordingly. didn't seem to do too much damage. but it was a nice scare, and i always love to be reminded of what burning hair smells like. my hair is falling out anyway. i might need to get a product at some point in my twenties... i also have been really stressed and nervous in general for like (a) year(s) i guess. i practically rip it out. what am i talking about again? ok. time to stop. drop and rolll. ummm, goodnight. need sleepy