hmm...
okay so lets see here...
today i had oceanography lab and we went out on a walk down the beach and everything was crazy down there. i found a huge hermit crab that was living in a conch shell but he wouldnt come out because he was scared. i wish that i could have taken him home and given him to mary kate because of her dead one. she literally cried about it while i laughed at her. i love it. im such a bitch.
okay so over the past few times i have been home and everone that i have seen and hung out with that i never even talked to in high school was like "omg mandy i thought that you hated me" and i dont know why everyone thinks that because i really dont hate many people...only the select few seiously. everyone says that they get intimidated and that i give dirty looks...i dont mean to and i dont notice that i do. i think that its because when i was with tim we just hated everyone and in turn i began to hate everyone but i have changed my ways. because i realized that its stupid...if you hate everyone than it doesnt get you anywhere. you dont make friends and you end up sad and alone. mary kate even told me that when she met me for the first time here i intimidated her and i dont get it because i really dont realize that im doing things and they just happen! whenever i go out now and people are like "omg mandy i thought that you hated me" lauren andersani gives them the story about how we used to hate eachother for no reason and then we became friends. its the way that i have made friends recently lol...starting out by having them think that i hate them. its horrible and i wish that it wasnt the way that things were.
on friday before we come home i have a class until 5 and im pissed because i hate that class and even more than hating the class i hate having a class until 5 i mean who does that? seriously who does that!
im jealous of morgan because she just broke up with her boyfriend and stuff because of the distance and not seeing him and she already has one lined up who loves her more than anything. seriously whats the luck! i get heated about this because im sad that i still dont have someone who i am serious about. people were serious about me but i just never got that way about them. i think that its because i wasnt ready when i had the oppertunities and now that im ready everyone is at home. i need to meet someone here and get away from it all.
im pumped about no one being home this weekend...im not going to have a party or anything because my neighbors would be on the phone with my mom in like 0.1 seconds telling her and then calling the cops. i wish that i lived in the woods. but atleast i can have a few people over without things begin out of control and get away with it. and i can go and pick people up and stuff so theres not cars *wink*wink* if you know what i mean!
i gotta go feed the hunger though...
today i had oceanography lab and we went out on a walk down the beach and everything was crazy down there. i found a huge hermit crab that was living in a conch shell but he wouldnt come out because he was scared. i wish that i could have taken him home and given him to mary kate because of her dead one. she literally cried about it while i laughed at her. i love it. im such a bitch.
okay so over the past few times i have been home and everone that i have seen and hung out with that i never even talked to in high school was like "omg mandy i thought that you hated me" and i dont know why everyone thinks that because i really dont hate many people...only the select few seiously. everyone says that they get intimidated and that i give dirty looks...i dont mean to and i dont notice that i do. i think that its because when i was with tim we just hated everyone and in turn i began to hate everyone but i have changed my ways. because i realized that its stupid...if you hate everyone than it doesnt get you anywhere. you dont make friends and you end up sad and alone. mary kate even told me that when she met me for the first time here i intimidated her and i dont get it because i really dont realize that im doing things and they just happen! whenever i go out now and people are like "omg mandy i thought that you hated me" lauren andersani gives them the story about how we used to hate eachother for no reason and then we became friends. its the way that i have made friends recently lol...starting out by having them think that i hate them. its horrible and i wish that it wasnt the way that things were.
on friday before we come home i have a class until 5 and im pissed because i hate that class and even more than hating the class i hate having a class until 5 i mean who does that? seriously who does that!
im jealous of morgan because she just broke up with her boyfriend and stuff because of the distance and not seeing him and she already has one lined up who loves her more than anything. seriously whats the luck! i get heated about this because im sad that i still dont have someone who i am serious about. people were serious about me but i just never got that way about them. i think that its because i wasnt ready when i had the oppertunities and now that im ready everyone is at home. i need to meet someone here and get away from it all.
im pumped about no one being home this weekend...im not going to have a party or anything because my neighbors would be on the phone with my mom in like 0.1 seconds telling her and then calling the cops. i wish that i lived in the woods. but atleast i can have a few people over without things begin out of control and get away with it. and i can go and pick people up and stuff so theres not cars *wink*wink* if you know what i mean!
i gotta go feed the hunger though...